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Wishing

I stumble and I crawl This heart was useless after all
Of all the things we have said You chose to pretend your dead
Honestly I thought we could be better than this Constant cycle of mistrust and deviance
I want you, I want you to know
This heart is fragile like glass My words come out too fast I'm sorry, I'm sorry Your not sorry, not sorry Wish I could rewind this change
Now nothing and no one is here Cold hearted defeat still steering near
My anguish got the best of me Your blindness, tastes so bittersweet If I could rewind it, when we would meet We wouldn't have hurt this much
I want you, I want you to know 
This heart is fragile like glass My words come out too fast I'm sorry, I'm sorry Your not sorry, not sorry Wish I could rewind this change
If I could just let things go Maybe I'd find what I'm still fighting for
This misery seems so strong This feeling I've held in for too long
I miss you

Man In The Dark

He was gentle
He was soft and sweet
He let out a wildfire
Angry thought took me too deep

Fickle mind terrified
Every time he comes around
I waste more time

With the man in the dark
No face to see
Just an empty heart
We let go of our bodies
With the man in the dark
No conversation to please
Just an empty heart
We let go of our dreams
With the man in the dark

He was uncertain
He taught me not to care
He let me feel worthless
Thought I wouldn't stare

Framed in the third time
Just disappointment for keeps
I think I lost my mind
Cause he won't even stay for me

Fickle mind terrified
Every time he comes around
I waste more time
I waste more time

With the man in the dark
No face to see
Just an empty heart
We let go of our bodies
With the man in the dark
No conversation to please
Just an empty heart
We let go of our dreams
With the man in the dark

If you could see what you are doing
Rip my last breath from me
You've taken this light and put it out
Who the hell am I supposed to love…

Everything

Once I fell in love
Once I fell to the wind

We're ghosts of each other
Kiss me once again

Young and empty words
Shaken by the things we heard

It's everything

Wishful thinking
Eyes still blinking

Once I needed everyone
Once I burned beneath the sun

Your lies covered like the moon
Clever faces exterior motive on the move

Keep at war, a diamond or a whore
Two faces and oracles
She's sharing her only cause

It's everything

You, are
You, are
Bitterness

You, are
You, are
Reminiscent

It takes over
It takes over



FIRST LOOK: New Apartment (Move In Date: March 1st, 2017)

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So as many of my friends know, I've been on a long long journey since last year, working hard to garner what sanity I had left in me after dealing with a lot of stressing situations but I'm finally making strides in ways I never thought would happen.

I've always been an independent person and I've prided myself on that trait but this year has also been about coming together and resolution in not only those who have helped me but those I hold close to my heart. I couldn't of done any of this without you and I want to extend my thanks to all of those who have helped me get to this point in my life. Proof is all you need when it comes to knowing that I'm doing just fine without the hate.

You're probably wondering at this point what my apartment looks like so far, and I am quite excited to share an exclusive look at where I call home. It's my first truly (to myself) apartment. No roommates; no b.s.

Pictures of my home conclude: