Showing posts from 2016

Fuck You Erika (Lyrics)

Its been an awful year
Its been silence on the verge of fear
So many faces you rip through
Feelings collapse on guilty fingertips to give you use

You give your body like magazines and meth labs
You share the sins you never could keep, so you can take them back

Kiss the boys to validate your lows and your cheapest ways
Sleep around maybe then you'll glow or eventually fade

Run your mouth all you want
Words are mirrors to the things you've done
You say it's my loss but I never had anything at all
You're just a shitty kid with no brain
You're just trying to get more attention to play

You validate by being cruel
Cold heart and a victim to friends you use
You're a snake trying to be an angel
You're repeating yourself

You lie to faces to get what you want
Only caring about your selfish needs on the run
Only being the stubborn nineteen and sleaze

Maybe if I wrote a letter
Called you a whore or make you feel better
It never meant shit to you
You want what all the p…

R.I.P Marshmallow 😢

Upon arriving home tonight. Our beloved Marshmallow was found dead on the roadway by our house. 

I'm numb. I can't seem to contain the tears for too long and our new cat just doesn't compare. 

She was only a kitten :(

Why does this year have to suck so much? Things were finally going better....

What Do I Spy?

Oh, just another cat. Marshmallow decided to run away but in comes a gorgeous gray cat. We still haven't named her. Ideas?


Why does this guy look like an older version of what my ex would of looked like if he was honest about his looks??
#Creepy #OnlyOnGrindr #GayDating

All around

Things are looking up. We settled into our current apartment and we don't have to move anymore. I'm also added to the lease now, so I have say so on the apartment.

We recently acquired a lovely cat. We named her Marshmallow and she's an adorable Siamese.

Work is still work but at least this weekend, I have off; a sadistically rare occasion.

Anywho, here are pictures of our newest member to our little family; complete with a picture of my roommate; since people gawk at him like he's a model or something 😂

Erik; my AWESOME roommate:

Life Update {Apartment life + roommate}

So, it's been a busy month and I've been hard at work doing things to get further into my future.

About a week ago, I moved out of my family home and moved into an apartment with a roommate. Things have been going relatively well considering we are still working on getting things for the place.

I took advantage of a tag sale going on at work and they marked down a lot of Pioneer Woman items to $1 and some were even 50 many of us at work know; Pioneer Woman is a very expensive brand... I bought some items for our kitchen and now it's starting to look beautiful... I have several pieces and such for our dining table when we get around to making that purchase.

I've already contacted a woman nearby about purchasing two end tables and an entertainment center from her and she was kind enough to sell it to me altogether for just $120 which is a great deal considering $120 is only 1/3 of the cost of just the entertainment center alone usually. She's even holding …


At least I'm honest.

Fake Ass Bitches

Dedicated to all the fake bitches - including internationally ;)

Glimmer of hope


The Time I've Wasted


Project XX (Demo - UNFINISHED)

I'm not apologizing for shit.

Home (Lyrics by BLOVE)

On the trail that leads me home
Saw a ghost and ran like hell
Cause I can't believe in such things

Oh my hands are tied tightly against me
Bracing a lonely storm, still trying

And the boys kiss them goodbye
One last time, in my mind

The older my skin travels
All I seem to ever feel

Oh, sweet love
You keep me unknown
Oh, sweet love
You keep me alone
Alone I'll go
Going home

Leaves crash like flakes to the wind
Passed a couple with two dogs that were holding hands
Cause irony loves to win

Oh my hands are tied tightly against me
Bracing a lonely storm, still trying

And the boys kiss them goodbye
One last time, in my mind

The older my skin travels
All I seem to ever feel

Oh, sweet love
You keep me unknown
Oh, sweet love
You keep me alone
Alone I'll go
Going home

Alone I go
Alone I go

Love I'll never know
That's alright

I'm going home

Do you like my nails? Or is it my face?


My Give A Damn's Busted + F**k Apologies (NEW Single from Jojo)


Heart Skipped A Beat

When I called you, you were out of reached, I'm sure you've heard it before


Why do you want to be the complicated one?
You lead me into the dark only to burn me with the sun Ignoring my call when I need you here, I'm in tears
All I gave, and all I had to feel Pieces of my heart still drifting
Moonlight cascading against my skin
Calm reminder that I'm still searching
All I wish I could have Still lonely inside these monuments I try to call you but your gone All along I was wrong

Made a fool like years before
Wish someone had told me to shut the door
But I was a kid with a heart full of dreams
My eyes got stuck on the next beautiful thing

Take all I have
You can shake me but you can't retract
Pull over
You want me to be a carbon copy
Take all I am
You won't win, it's just history starting over
Take all I have
You can't retract
Why does it hurt more when its been six months away?
Pretending I know what I was supposed to say
You got your joke and laughter; the story to shame my name
Does the hurt ever subdue to change?

Take all I have
You …

Reality still finds us

While we are always told that we MUST have a plan. Remember people who didn't have a plan and landed their own companies like Martha Stewart for example who went from modeling, to book writing, to owning her own empire of home living collections and crafting products.

You don't have to have a plan. You only need passion for a dream to happen.

Summer Collection: My Go-To Beauty Products

It's nearing the end of summer soon and I wanted to gather what I've used a lot during the summer season. Some of these products are holy grail items that I have recently stumbled upon and some of these are products that I've fallen in love with over the past year or two.

FACE1. CoverGirl Clean Matte BB Cream [Medium to full coverage - My favorite of the 3] 2. Sonia Kashuk Radiant+ Tinted Moisturizer (SPF 15) - [Sheer to light coverage and a DUPE for NARS Pure Radiant Tinted Moisturizer which costs around $36] 3. FLOWER BB Cream [Full coverage; exclusively available at Walmart stores only - A seriously amazing product] BROWS1. FLOWER Draw The Line in 'Brunette' [High coverage, natural finish, smudge resistant, and all day wear] 2. Sonia Kashuk Eyebrow Pencil in 'Taupe' [Medium coverage, natural finish, and all day wear] CHEEKS1. AVON Be Blush Blush Stick in 'Mandarin Glow' [High coverage, semi-matte, all day wear] 2. Mary Kay Mineral Cheek Duo in …



Don't you know I need help too

Hold on, stay strong, my love.

Amazing Vacation So Far...

So today, I've arrived here in the beautiful city of Myrtle Beach, SC which is two hours away from where I live now.

The first thing you notice the most when you get here are the lavish buildings, lots of condos and beach houses, million dollar mansions are plenty and the extravagant assortment of activities to do.

Tomorrow evening, we are going to a medieval times dinner and show (most of the family) and we look forward to exploring other famous, fun, attractions nearby.

Our room is basically a condo suite and we have a full view of the pier and ocean. Our resort has two towers and its own restaurant and bar. We have an amazing balcony view too, from which we can view almost all of the city, the ocean, the pier, the other tower, the lazy river pool and all of the other amenities available to us.

We got an amazingly good deal on our room stay. It comes with all of the amenities as well. You get fully furnished condo suites, with dishes, kitchen appliances like a blender, toaster, …

Tomorrow (July 17th)

I am so excited.

I will get to visit Myrtle Beach, SC. A lovely travel destination hailed by people from all over the world and its only 2 hours from where I live now!

I'm going to get the luxury of spending my time at the Prince Resorts in Northern Myrtle Beach and my family and I are attending a lovely medieval show that has rave reviews from people.

I look forward to letting go and enjoying some nice luxurious comforts for a change.

Thank you God for this amazing blessing! :)

With all this racism everywhere...

I want you all to know that I love you.  Regardless of gender, race, where you live, where you were born, what religion you practice, how you dress, what job you work, amount of money you make, who you are voting for, what you have done in the past, etc.
The list could go on and on and on. 
Love is more powerful than hate.

Me & The Rhythm

All I need, is the rhythm.

Love Lives On

A few weeks ago, I met a lesbian woman from NY who connected with me on my need to create ribbons for the victims of Orlando. She kindly made this keychain for me and out of kindness, I am honored to own this token of friendship. It's time for our community to stand together. We all suffer the same. We all deserve love and peace.


Never again
Should I stay or should I go?  An opportunity awaits If you want to go, we can go Beautiful beginnings, beautiful let go

Waiting for a change #DrivenByLove


Pulse by Melissa Etheridge (Song dedicated to the victims of the Orlando tragedy)

My heart is broken. #LoveIsLove (Donate to the victims of the Pulse Orlando shooting)

In memory of all 49 victims who have lost their lives to hate. 
Please help donate to the victims and their families HERE.

Say It Right - Cover - Karaoke

Just a cover of a song that really speaks to me
I dedicate this song to all of my enemies :)

Songwriters: Nelly Furtado, Nate Hills, Timothy Mosley

Record Label: Sony ATV/EMI Music Publishing LLC, Warner/Chappell Music Inc.

I Never Loved You

We used to dance inside our heads
The world was ours until we played dead
A voice would scream for us to realize
Nothing is what it seems, until goodbye

Truth comes out upon my lips
Every hurt now just a piece of innocence

I built the wall
I'm taking control

This world is yours
I've got gold in the skies

It's in my memory

You're washed up in your head
The things you believe but aren't really there
(really there)
Saying things that you have never said
(never said)

Somewhere beyond the broken road is your friend
I've got pennies in my pocket to keep me going
You're the energy that stole away my light
I've got a reason for never telling you why

Why I never loved you
I never loved you

Years and years fly by
Old fantasies reverb on lies

I remember, I remember

Eighteen years old

I remember, I remember

Why I chose to let you go

You're washed up in your head
The things you believe but aren't really there
(really there)
Saying things that you have never said
(never said…

Crash (Sampler - Music Produced by Dnali)


There will be trouble but it's always better in the morning

I never meant to make you wait Even though you weren't around My phone says you were calling  Try to shake it off It's always better in the morning

Along the way


Love Is Noise

Will those feet in modern times walk on soles that are made in china? through the bright prosaic malls and the corridors that go on and on and on
Are we blind - can we see? we are one, incomplete are we blind in the city? waiting for lightening to be saved, yeah cause love is noise, love is pain love is these blues that I'm singing again
Love is noise, love is pain love is these blues that im singing again, again, again, again, again
Will those feet in modern times understand this world's affliction? recognize the righteous anger? understand this world's addiction?
I was blind - couldn't see what was here in me I was blind - insecure felt like the road was way too long yeah cause love is noise, love is pain love is these blues that I'm singing again (3x) again (6x)
All those feet in modern times walk on soles made in china will those feet in modern times see the bright prosaic malls will those feet in modern times recognize the heavy burden will those feet…

PodRide: The Bicycle Car

What a novel idea!


I absolutely love this show and I always will. Niles, you on point.

A beautiful Sunday


My Best Advice

If you look for negativity; negativity will blind you. If you look for positivity; positivity will change you.

Walking Stones

I let it go
Sucks but I know
Some stories are meant for me alone

Skies above me
Something I trusted long ago

Didn't think that I'd feel
Didn't think this would become real

All the words that were spoken
Moments I lost along the way

Now my eyes are open
I know what not to do

Giving my heart to strangers
Forgetting my youth

Didn't know I'd find it
Didn't know I'd feel blinded

Now it all makes sense
Why I'm left with my friends

Couldn't get easier
Breathing without the worst

Sometimes life becomes helpless
You have to make it work

Now my eyes are open
I know not to love too much

My mind is focused
A world I know I'll find

I don't have the time
For all these slandering ways

I don't have the energy
To give my heart away

If there is one thing I've hoped for
A guy with so much more to say

Than silence like movies
Carry my tears to the lake

I'm washing all of this over
A time or two for us

My body is a temple
My lips are made for trust


My favorite artist

I want to take the time to share with you all, a link to a very talented artist that I've come to love over the past few years. 
Her name is Alison Jardine and she is from London. Her work speaks to me in a way of intoxicating colors, thoughtful details, and an array of projects that she is working on. 
Her work is even sponsored by Sony in some of her more recent projects and art shows. I sincerely feel that if you haven't; you should visit Alison's profile on Flickr and have a look at her amazing talent. 
She not only has a lot of great work to share but she's also a very kind lady who really has a passion for her work and for her fans. 
Check her work out via this link > ALISON JARDINE FLICKR PROFILE



Like a forest


Beyond the trees, shine of hope


Life is a revolving door


Like a postcard


Lunch w/Drella was fun :)



I'm not hurting and I'm not crying over anything. The sense of freedom I wanted for such a long time has finally walked into my life in the form of taking care of myself and loving the time I get to spend doing what I want to do without anyone interrupting my positive flow.

We live in an unstable and unjust world that is filled with self entitlement and charmers that would rather feed on people than work towards building a better world with everyone.

Anything that deals with my past isn't an option. It's not something I will revisit again because it's the past and the past is meant to be swept away from you to make room for the new that comes ahead.

For a long time, I let others dictate my way of thinking, the words I would express, and the way I would feel about things. I let people decide what was best for me and it almost destroyed me.

It's a beautiful thing when you can look around and seeing all these broken people; you know how important it is to be kind …

Chime Card: No Support For Android Pay (UPDATED 2018)

UPDATE: As of December 2017- January 2018, Android and Samsung Pay is confirmed working and can be activated through verification on the Chime card.

More info: Click here

Setup: Click here

I love my Chime card. I really do, but there are some things that need to happen in order for me to love it even more.
If you are a customer and you've been wondering if Chime supports Android Pay or Apple Pay.
They currently don't, BUT according to their support team; they will be offering support for mobile payments like Android and Apple Pay in the near future. Along with new features such as Peer to Peer Transfers and Photo Direct Deposit Uploads.
There isn't a set date, however; it could be this year or even next year before we know anything or get a notification in our inboxes. Keep a watch out everyone!



My name is no, my sign is no, my number is no


I just want to start off by saying that I have NO; absolutely ZERO respect for ANYONE that disrespects and bullies the mentally ill and ANYONE that bullies someone altogether.
What is sad, is that, I've met people in my life that were misinformed and misguided in their persona of how mental illness really works and why it is important to show respect to people even if you feel they have done something to you that justifies otherwise. 
Those with mental illness, suffer from an illness that is NOT curable and is NOT something they can turn off and on. Many people around the world suffer from these inabilities and yet you have people like the guy mentioned in this video who bullies people that he doesn't understand.
I have family with mental illnesses ranging from depression to anxiety to more serious forms of mental illnesses and to see ANYONE make sly gestures or asinine remarks will certainly set me off.
It is NOT okay to bully ANYONE; especially though with an illness.
In te…

Chemistry Of A Car Crash

Just take away the words I say Cause I know That you don't feel the same Just go and say What's in your head And I won't try to stop you

Don't Cry Out

Seize fire

I will wait it out

I've gotta change my desire

Stay Down

Actually like this song mostly because of the beat, but lyrically, I probably could relate with it? Either way, a great song from one of my favorite bands... Loyal follower since 2006 :)

I know I have a way

of fading when I'm listening

A gift for myself

Since I started going back to school. Things are really looking up. This past week, my academic coach congratulated me on a job well done.

I'm already halfway through my second semester and once I focus, I'm like a bull...I will NOT give up until I reach my result of desire.

As a gift to myself, I purchased a new phone with better specs and a way for me to enjoy the true Android experience.

I seriously love this phone :)


So you're an internet player. 

I get it. Explains EVERYTHING :)

Just be yourself; it's all you can do


So #$%@ you, and your untouchable face

I could make you happy; it you weren't already


If its Dutch; it's not much.

Thanks, Psycho Ex BF/Friend/Whatever You Were Really/Loser/Jezebel — Branni Love (@BranniMikal) April 6, 2016 It's amazing how crappy people really turn out (myself included). Take for example, a guy that told he would've lied about his name (after lying with his photos) in an 8 year downhill spiral that is thankfully over.

I only feel terrible for the next person that becomes victim to you (or your boyfriend). You can claim you love someone all you want but love isn't a game; Its pure and simple. That's the problem with you; you don't understand the true simplicity behind these things because you were raised in a culture of insults and accumulations as an important virtue.

Money, jobs, degrees, are nice and they do have a lot of good but in the hands of bad people; they become powerful tools for greedy behavior and some of which I witnessed in the years I knew you.

You used the things I confided in you as a weapon against me and c…

It Became A Lie On You

The grave that you've been digging for me, became your home
Shocking all the evidence left On this holiday You're creeping up with venomous thoughts That you've waited to say
Your words are speaking out of your throat Like an open grave I haven't spoke to you in a year That's what I say
It became a lie on you It became a lie on you
If you think that I'm not the same Then I guess you've changed Blackened by the temperature made To smear my name
The grave that you've been digging for me Became your home
For teaming me as bad company I hope you know
It became a lie on you It became a lie on you
It feels like you're letting go I'm back for days to know Feels like you're letting go
Bring on the poison that's in your throat And fight for days to know Feels like you're letting go Like you're letting go
Shocking all the evidence left On this holiday

Words of encouragement

In the bathroom at work



It's here. School has officially begun!

I'm excited and yet so very nervous but I feel like this is a great step ahead and I can't wait to dive in and start working seriously on my future. The fact that this is a free education speaks enough already. 
I now have the tools I need to better myself and to really dive into what I feel will be a great opportunity for myself to take part in. Here goes!

Blog Update: Archives have been added

Archives are located at the left-hand side of this blog at the end of the left column
For a long time, you had to click on 'Old Posts' repeatedly just to access some of my older posts. Today, I'm making it easier by allowing you to pinpoint specific posts you like and find them with ease using the Archive links which are a convenient way to track posts that truly interest you.
I hope that everyone who reads my blog will find that using this tool is an easy way to enjoy all of my posts without having to click on 'Old Posts' five hundred time to get to a post that really resonates with what you're feeling or even a post that in some way; made you smile.
G'day <3

Put the lime in the coconut

Put the lime in the coconut and call me in morning
A great song to kick off the week... or if you're in need of freedom

So here I am and...

It's another stunningly gorgeous day today. 
The wind carries away all of your worries and the feeling that you can smile more than you can say 'I Love You' resonates in the entire ambiance surrounding you.
Today is one of those days where you can't help but appreciate the wonders of your natural habitat that is the outdoors. 
I'm sitting here on my colorful lawn blanket with my Macbook, my phone, and a nice orange drink underneath a very tall tree with just enough shade to say "I Told You So" and enough sunlight to make you wish it would never leave. 
These are the days you long for here. Where all you want to do is get out and have a little fun under the sun with the wonderful breeze that makes you feel like you're a kid again. A common feeling among those who haven't yet reached puberty. Or so Dr. Phil would say.
Here are some pictures:

And just for some added measure, how about staring at how huge my coffee is... this is the Dunkin' Donut…