Posts

Showing posts from January, 2014

School time, goal time

It's never been a better time for me to start back with school and I decided to take a swift approach towards getting what I want to get rather than what I'm told I should get.

For $49 monthly for 29 months; I can study and take exams that will credit me a normal grade as if I were still in high school and all the while; shimmy my way towards getting my high school diploma. Rather than go back to a college here that really offers no tools or inspiration for me; I researched my online offerings and stumbled upon a nationally accredited school; Penn Foster.

So far, my graduation date appears to be on September 29, 2015 (which means in just a years time) to which I will have my trusty certificate that shows I have a brain and brain cells and then perhaps; I'll be able to look towards finding a better paying job or advance further in my productivity flow.

My last recorded grade was a 100 on my section 2 exam for my Human Relations class. I'm actually enjoying this school s…

It came out of nowhere

Image
Always

ASTR

Image
Do what you started.

Who says we die?

Image
Before we live.

Before Lovers

Image
All I need.

I Miss You

Image
Don't waste your time on me.

Our Love

Radiant
You are young
Silent
You are running away

Love, it tastes of pain
Body reveals your name

Crying out for tomorrow
Waiting up for the sun that don't shine
Whisper what you can't borrow
These emotions seem to revert your mind

Child
You act like a child
Everything
You disappear without a name

Joy, it tastes of shame
Dreams become the game

Crying out for tomorrow
Waiting up for the sun that don't shine
Whisper what you can't borrow
These emotions seem to revert your mind

We're not the same

They say, you're good for me
They say, you're everything I need

I won't be shaken by your mistakes and
I've given all I could give it
We're just pieces inside this
Resentment for light

Crying out for tomorrow
Waiting up for the sun that don't shine
Whisper what you can't borrow
These emotions seem to revert your mind

Middle

I see you now
You make me hurt

So many of someone else
I feel the worst of this hell, you borrowed

I started this pattern
I corrupt your heart for morrow

Never knew you would do this
Broken in the hallway
Forgot your smiles so hollow

You won't talk again
You never believed in it

I won't wait, for sun rises tomorrow

I see you now
You taste of filtered sorrows

Who are they?
What do they offer?

I can't compete
I'm not the alter

This love you borrowed



Like Paper

In the light
You change
Carried away
Empty name

I'm home inside
Your heart died

Lonely love
Arrows and guns

Harbor walk
These days are done

I'm nothing more to you
Wrestle my good, for use

Find way to younger years
We depart the tears

In the light
You change
Carried away
Empty name

I'm home inside
Your heart died

Lonely love, tonight

Sunshine

Sunshine, baby
All night

You just want my body
You just want my body
You just want my body

I say, no no no no no

You just want my body
You just want my body
You just want my body

I say, no no no no no

Sunshine, baby
All night

Hide Stereo Love

All your lies
Build you up
Build you up
Build you up
All your lies
Build you up
Build you up
Build you up
They build you up
All of your lies

And I will make you hurt

Image
I will let you down

We are living our world

Image
In Photograph

I promise you...

Image
Walls

The truth of you

I find it funny to see you're still pitying yourself. You are the cause of your issues; so you should be the one to fix it. No one else can do that but you kid.
You can blame me for what happened if you feel it justifies something.
We all know that you've been lying to people so you can make yourself look better in this. You and I both know what really happened. I didn't do anything but what you asked me to. 
He isn't at all impressive in anything anyway; why would I risk my friendship over that? Ask yourself that question next time. Do you think someone would risk their entire history for a few minutes of unwanted pleasure? I don't think so.
I'm not a harlot like you are painting me out to be towards your friends. You seem to have a twisted version and idea of the entire thing and you know what; that's fine because I refuse to fall into it and be victim to your vindictive behavior. I know the truth and the truth is something you apparently can't handl…

Message In A Bottle (Lyrics)

I, was too young to keep it together
Tell me, why did I wait forever?

Oceans, so many waves to take me in
I cut you out; begin again

Because I love the thrill
Of losing everything
I'll repeat history
No more darker days

Because I love the thrill
I'll disconnect
Remember nothing else
My heart out on my chest
Because I love the thrill

I, send out the message to your friends
Tell me, why, why did I get closer to them?

Lights, so many blinding spots upon my eyes
I blind you out; begin again

Because I love the thrill
Of losing everything
I'll repeat history
No more darker days

Because I love the thrill
I'll disconnect
Remember nothing else
My heart out on my chest
Because I love the thrill

Oceans, so many waves to take me in
Oceans, so many faces I've never met

What's so special about you?
You're dangerous like a gun

We run away together
A newer place

No one we remember
Just distant space

Because I love the thrill
Of losing everything
I'll repeat history
No …

Problem solver (M&M)

You know, Threatening my life among my family and friends lives won't solve your problems you're having with your relationship. Those issues were there long before I became part of the picture again.

You want to get mad at me over a lie he told you and believe him over me (someone who won't lie to you) even though you've found proof that he was cheating on you with another guy and he's been known to cause problems with you and other friends in the past.

I'm sorry he doesn't treat you like you should be treated and I'm sorry that he doesn't know that you can be a good person but you're problems should of never been of my involvement because they are nothing to do with me nor do I really care to deal with someone else's problems like that. I have my own to worry about.

You've always done this since I first met you some years ago when I was still in high school. You like to fake a friendship for awhile and then when you're unhappy; you …

After You

So far away
So far away

Believe the lies you hear
If it justifies your fears

Close my eyes and I see it get close to good
Open my eyes and I remember what I could

Board on a fast train, to carry me away
Memories tied between first and second place

I'll remind myself to look away
The times get harder when I think of your name
You've always been the same

Driving soon, so far from here
New life, new friends, new tears

I don't want to be the one you talk about
I want to be someone else while you feel doubt

Board on a fast train, to carry me away
I'll begin again, someday
These faces tried so hard to take
I'll keep running till I forget your name

Desert this town full of invasion space
There is no time for me to waste

I need a new fate

The lies you spread are simply to gain
The good will never output the shame

The wicked lose when you forget their name
Who will you be when you've passed away?

Board on a fast train, to carry me away
I'll begin again, someday
Thes…

Someday soon... my love will carry me

Image
De stad liefdes.

All You Have Is You (Lyrical piece)

They say you'll never get far without a little gasoline
They claim that my heart will be on fire at the scene

All my emotions come pouring out like ocean waves
I don't want them to notice the hurt that sits behind me

I'll hide in my cell where they will never find me
It's better than erasing the good I used to find

This town is built on selective ignorance
Some faces meet you and others just talk shit

You would wonder; who is worth the time
Sometimes my head tells me, I need to lose my mind

Stamp your labels on my hands
If it makes you feel like a man
Stamp your labels on my hands
If it gives you solidarity and

I'm lost in a river
Swimming through to the other side for a dream
I'm lost in a river
Trying to find the light in a place so empty

Where is the truth?
Where is the resolve?

I'll never get places if I keep giving out my heart
They'll never give me a chance
I'll always have to walk

The only one you really have is your own

I'll hide away
So you will …

Somewhere beyond the dark

Image
I will wait for you.

Shannon

They can believe the lies they hear
Ask the one who went through it
They will hear the truth come out
Ask the one who went through it
My honesty comes pouring out

You're twisting perceptions to kill my good name
You're plotting my death so you can feel sane

What you didn't know was the fact I didn't want to do it
I did it all so you can walk away from pain

Your friends all hate me
You say I'm a monster but it's not that way
Your friends don't know my side of the story
You've lead them all astray

I'll move on and let live today
For true life is a mist the rain
You and your words won't kill me

I'll never fall to your game

Matthew

A fool will believe lies said
The truth is written inside my hands

I never did those things you say
I never played those stupid games

So you can spread your anger wild
I guess when you have no life; it makes it worthwhile

You said you told me how you felt to friends from afar
Not once have I heard your voice; or found such a bitter heart

You must be so unhappy when you think of me
I'm sorry he doesn't keep you his everything

It's not my fault that people will stare
You're angry for no reason and I just don't care

Never again
Will I sing
Those words you wish
You're completely empty
I never gave to it

He lied to your face and said I tried to kiss him
I was only playing a part and you saw it

You fed me your poison so I couldn't say no
I knew I was above it and still I let it go

Why must a face be plastered with shame
When nothing was wrong, except everything

I'll never get why you've hated me so much
I'm not this person that you've created in y…

For you

I'd give control
I'd give my light
I'd smile
I'd cry
I'd always remember
I'd never lie

So if you want control; baby let me know. I crave your heart; not your clothes.

When the world caves in

Image

We need someone to believe in

That's what you're music proves to me. I need to find him again. I need peace again. I need to stop caring about everyone else's view and look towards my own. You've never left me behind but I always left you behind. Forgive me.

Everything runs its course

Image

This year

I will use names in my posts. So if it's about you; you will know :)

Happy New Year Bas ;) I love you dearly you crazy thing you <3