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Pray for rain, lose your name

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For a change, I'll refrain, From hiding all of me from you

Spirit of Use*

You try to hide the implications of youth
Bodies everywhere, you chose over me

Respect is nothing more than a word
We can't because we hurt

You don't have the strength to change
So you're lead astray

I'll push you far away
(away, away, away)
You try to kill me, with blame
Turn to another face and pray
(pray, pray, pray)
Wishing that things could change
I'll push you so far away

You've never took notice by truth
The eyes of all you use

A grown man, unable to be wise
Unstable, I realize

You don't have the strength to change
You repeat your game

I'll push you far away
(away, away, away)
You try to kill me, with blame
Turn to another face and pray
(pray, pray, pray)
Wishing that things could change
I'll push you so far away

You don't care
You're just a phase
Missing what you never gained
Pushing you away


Slow kills

It's never easy to see someone who just drops a bomb on you; with other people. Still, as I said recently with a few people involved in my life; he did it for himself.

Sex is the undertow of many guys here and unfortunately; the old fashioned side of me makes it difficult for it to mesh with their overwhelming demand to get off.

The realism of sex is that while it is great to have, it isn't a vital solution to making anything better. You can leave someone in hopes of more fun, but considering you are older than I am and still single; proves that you didn't learn any of your life lessons and that is quite sad but not the least bit surprising.

Men of any age have their pros and cons; regardless, everyone will have something they have to work on in their life; hence why we are here on this Earth.

Steadily, I leave a lyric for you to ponder:

Tell me if you love someone, do you love them all?
I know the truth behind your decision and while I am saddened by it; I understand that…

Yes, yes, yes

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Fall of Man*

Small heart, you beat so low Words so weak to let me know You smile and press forward Seems like it's nothing left that's worth
I've wanted and only dreamed I've missed and never achieved What does this all mean?
Trying so much to keep a straight line So many just want to waste your time
I'd give so much, just for so little in return
You didn't do it for love You did it all for yourself The beating of my heart You never felt You didn't understand The words I said The beating of your heart You've lost your step You did it all for yourself
Where did it all go? Years of learning how to get comfortable
They still can't keep a hold So weak, they've lost control
I held onto fear Wished you were near
You didn't do it for love You did it all for yourself The beating of my heart You never felt You didn't understand The words I said The beating of your heart You've lost your step You did it all for yourself
I've wanted and only dreamed Wha…

The older I get

Maybe it's the threat of death, the untamed claim of financial woes, or the lack of a true relationship that has beaten it into me, but I've lately fell into a quiet but analytic aura.

Today is a new chapter, a unique page has been written inside this book that entails the life that I've yet to been able to understand fully as I'm fighting to stay a child inside myself and yet the child inside me is growing into a quietly creature whose words have only armor to those that belittle the moment that fate decides to retract.

At lunch today, I was greeted with a message from my former half. He said that our relationship wasn't taking into account what we had envisioned for ourselves. The sad story; he's right.

With this new age of 25, I feel a sense of independence that is higher than it's ever been. I truly feel in every fiber of myself that it's okay to be on my own. It's okay to not get the love story for a moment. What I thought I wanted turned out t…