May 28, 2013

Food problem: Your greedy mouth

I normally don't mention names if I can help it, but this post is going to because I feel you should know who I'm referring to.

This happens almost all the time, which is ridiculous and this is the reason behind why our money gets so low; because some people are too picky or greedy to suffice just a little less to save money like the rest of us have to.

You know the size of a cheeseburger right? It's pretty filling usually in just ordering two. Brenda ordered three of them per person today and well, as usual, Dylan threw a fit because the three burgers didn't 'fill him up' enough and so the story goes on.

He's a fucking greedy fat ass and he complains like a little bitch all the time. He won't eat home cooked meals hardly because he claims they 'taste like shit' all the time and a lot of times.

They taste better than drive thru food but, Dylan has to have things his way or everyone else pays for it later with losing sleep or getting caught in the middle of his bullshit 'I'm hungry' rant over and over again like he's a fucking 2 year old.

It's ridiculous that people in this house even eat three burgers at a time when for me; two of them is plenty. Sometimes even just one or half of one is plenty for me but three? That's just a bit over the line of the 'obesity' line. I mean I get it; you haven't eaten anything all day; so for that, I can understand three burgers but when you complain about being hungry afterwards?

THIS is where all of our financial problems are at right now. It's not bills, it's all the damn food we have to buy you just so your sorry ass will sit the fuck down and eat without badgering your poor mom to death over what you don't like and do like with her cooking AND without having to hear those two classic words that we will remember from you even after you've been gone for 5 years.

"I'm hungry"

Well, how about this... we'll give you that dream vacation you've always wanted... except you'll take it in a third world country where food is scarce and then see how well you survive it... I really don't think people there would appreciate you yelling and throwing fits over a small piece of meat or a fruit of luck from someone nearby in the area... if the world went crazy and lost half of it's food; you would surely die.

PS: Your attitude won't 'fill me up' with any respect for you because all your ever going to bitch of is 'I'm hungry' and then wake up people by blaring your shitty music that no one else likes but you. Yeah, I went there. Be fucking thankful for the food you have. You could be starving right now had it not been for your brother loaning your mom money to feed everyone.

Get off your lazy fucking ass and get a fucking JOB. Wait?!?! What's that you say?.... you heard me; get a fucking J-O-B...hopefully your brain can comprehend that and if not; go back to school and do something that will help the family out or at least provide for yourself so we don't have to clean up your fucking messes... you're pathetic... you're another gluttonous fuck who can't seem to satisfy your overeating habits and take it out on everyone else in the house... fuck off

The big goal

If I'm single by the time I turn 25; I'm moving to another country...namely Europe

I have no time to wait forever to get what I deserve when all I did was provide everyone else with their love stories only to miss out on my own. I won't do this forever, I deserve a good man in my life.

Dear diary

Why do they always convert to friend status? yet they come back, no longer wanting to provide the love I'm looking for; just a generic substitute to what I have wanted for such a long time...

Do they know how much heartbreak they cause by this gesture? Should I start over every time I say goodnight? Why does this have to be so judgmental upon my lips, when all I need is to feel his fingertips.

May 22, 2013

Secrets to the 'false lash' look

Often times, I get a lot of compliments on my lashes. They're full and beautiful; many people ask if they are my true lashes or if I'm wearing false lashes because of how great they are. 

My best kept secret is L'oreal Voluminous High Definition mascara + eyelash curling and an eyeliner pen from NYX cosmetics. Really though; this will work for anyone under a variety of different looks.

Step 1: Curl your lashes, mostly curling the lash line but only about a 1/2 inch towards the center of your lashes. This will curl them beautiful and boost your length. It also makes applying mascara super easy and less messy. 

Step 2: Apply gently, 2 layers of mascara (thin layers) to just your top lashes. Bottom lashes will come last after eyeliner has been applied. 

Step 3: Apply eyeliner from the corner of the outer top and bottom lid and stopping where you lashes stop on your undereye. To lighten your corners; use a little concealer in two shades lighter than your skin tone. 

Step 4: Apply gently, 1 layer of mascara to your bottom lashes, focusing mostly on the area where your eyeliner has been applied. Make sure that it looks evenly put with your top lashes for a 'full' glam look.

And there you have it! An easy 4 step process to quick glam lashes without the use of false lashes or eyelash extensions. Smile pretty for the camera baby!

You used to call me gorgeous

And well oh Dutch pastime, I have to agree, especially with this lovely photo I took before work today:

May 16, 2013

The gift of surprise (EXCLUSIVE MUSIC INCLUDED)

Earlier today I did a Google search of myself or my preferred name and found a charming piece of music using one of my best vocal samples to date.

This kind of creativity shows that I do have a place in music. Maybe I'm not meant to be mainstream but I know I do belong somewhere after all.

Have a listen to this wonderful piece of art made by producer Ryan Wilcox ala 'Fly Productionz Ltd' - a record label in the UK.

I am loving this piece and I've noticed that a lot of the collaborations that are done with my samples are from those in the UK and other parts of Europe.

I'm happy to say that my dream is already starting to expand and fate it proving me wrong. I have a place in music again. A wonderful place.

May 4, 2013


Your music inspires me beyond measure and among the artists I've learned and fallen for lately; your music embodies what I want to progress.

I am going to make something of this dream; not for fame or fortune but for self satisfaction, a gift that I know I've been searching for for so many years. Soon it will be.

May 1, 2013

How-to: Delete 'gadgets' context item in Windows 8

In order to remove items from your context menu; you must first take full ownership of the file/folder before being able to remove it.

1. On your keyboard, hit Windows+R and enter 'regedit' in the popup window.

2. Navigate to HKEY_CLASSES_ROOT\DesktopBackground\Shell\Gadgets\command

3. First, you will need to right click on the 'command' folder and click on 'Permissions...'

4. Click on the 'Advanced' button and follow step 5.

5. At the top of the window, you will see 'TrustedInstaller' and a link to 'Change' it. This is who owns the file, registry, drive, or folder that you have selected to take ownership of. Click on 'Change' and type 'Users' then click 'OK'.

6. Under all of the permission entries, select the user account you are using or want to give permission to and then click on the 'Edit' button.

7. Check the 'Full Control' box and click 'OK'.

8. Right-click on the highlighted folder (which should be 'command') and click 'Delete', then click 'OK'.

*NOTE: You will have to do this for each folder you want to delete.

Now that you've deleted the 'command' folder, you can delete the 'Gadgets' folder by following the above steps and right-clicking over the folder after you've applied your permissions, and deleting the key from your registry.

Remember to give 'Full Control' to the account you are using or else it will not delete the folders.