August 23, 2012

Okay look...

If we but don't act like you have no idea how sex don't just ram it in and need to lube up and progressively get into things...unlike the loose folks that you may have banged prior to our hookup; I'm snug and I take care of my please; do me the favor...learn how to fuck properly

August 21, 2012

British people love me

So today, my department manager came off a bit prude...a british customer (she's one of my regulars) came by to ask about a particular size in a quilt and well, we were out of part of our policy; we have to call other stores that are nearby if possible to help the customer find the product in our stores elsewhere.

My department manager told me later while I was on hold that he could of done it on the telezon (a device we use) and I had no knowledge of this until that point mind you. He walked to the customer and made a comment while he was scanning the label and said "Had I known about this; it could of been done faster"....the customer (from which I have helped in the past with many of the things she has looked for in my department) later came back by when my department manager had left the area and asked me to get my supervisor; she was upset by his comment towards me and was offended by it saying to me "You shouldn't get treated this way at the workplace". She carried on.

She later went off on my department manager telling my supervisor Michelle that she needs to do something about this sort of behavior and that I didn't deserve his smirky comment. She said that I'm always friendly and a great help for her. As she left; she made a comment saying that she hopes to see me again and that she hopes not to see my department manager again.

I have to thank her, she is a great person and a really sweet gal (considering the moment here) and for her to stand up for me means a lot to me. I was tired today; and really in the dumps about being at work because I hadn't had a decent night of rest. Her honesty and her customer loyalty shows that by me being friendly and helping my customers; in return, they care. She cares about me and that is enough to know that getting up everyday and coming to work is worth it.

Now, time to gawk at my new shoes. I saw them on the clearance aisle as I was shopping around a bit at work this evening and I had to have them....I normally don't go for much of anything masculine but these shoes are to die for amazing in style and comfortable too :)

See; I can be some small ways.... ;D

Helpful clue about FUBU (as a brand) - FUBU used to be a designer brand from which used to cost a fortune to afford. They made clothing; jewelry; and shoes of course. It's a shock to see that Walmart has them finally. Walmart is truly coming into their own in terms of fashion and the latest trends. Great kicks ;)

August 20, 2012

A bag of chips, a movie, and life

It's always nice to see Shirley MacLaine's face light up the screen. With her steadfast attitude and her witty remarks. She keeps it simple and I admire that a lot.

Meanwhile; she's thinking too much about how I shouldn't eat chips before bedtime....look; she really is....

Shirley MacLaine shows no mercy for bullshit

But I can't resist eating my favorite chips. They are absolutely delicious and so soft to the touch when you eat them. The right amount of salt and just the right amount of texture for your tastebuds!

Munchos are truly snack savvy; keep on crunchin'

Still, I enjoy nice evenings like today where after a lovely laughter filled conversation with one of the most beautiful guys in the world; I get to enjoy a bit of girly chick flick time right before bedtime. I've always loved Shirley MacLaine because of her outspoken side; her spunk; and her comedic side. She's a clever woman I must say too given that she's managed to be herself in most of her roles without having to over do it like so of the other stars out there. I look to movies with her in them as if it's a delicious book that I'm in love with. Her movies are a delight. The same can apply with Goldie Hawn and of course; a personal favorite of mine, Sandra Bullock. 

Ah, the wonderful life :)

Goofing around... ;)

I just spoke into my Android phone and this crazy app AutoRap transformed my speech into a sick beat:

August 18, 2012

Toys for my boys

Today; I skipped lunch to start off on my shopping spree of goodies for my two favorite little boys. Kyzer and Malick mean the world to me and for being unable to provide with a birthday gift; I'm planning on meshing together a big box of wrapped up gifts and candies to ship to my boys as an early Christmas gift :)

A lot of money will go into this but I'm sure of it being worth it and it is going to be fun too...spoiling them with lots of fun things for them to adore...

So far I have a DVD.... toy remote (both with Elmo) for Malick and two Batman toys for Kyzer. Both of them will get a tub of chalk to play with outside too...turns out...Kyzers favorite color is blue and so far...he chooses green for Malick...after all; he is the oldest of the two ;)

Oh how I love them...especially that Malick calls Elmo; Melmo... <3

August 17, 2012

Why I like Norwegian Singers

Just listen... <3

Lana Del Rey

So I started listening to her today. I like her style.

She's got an old fashioned sound; a flavorful vocal style that seems to entice upon parts of Adele and pieces of a later Tammy Wynette. It's beautiful to me; though the gloom of "Video Games" is a bit overplayed but I do enjoy the track for it's simplistic approach.

Lana Del Rey will be a major influence upon other artists I believe; another Adele so to speak for us to savor.

August 16, 2012

What's this showing up?

Messages from the great ones of hot pockets. A very nom nom ocassion.

I love you oh yummy pocket of cheeses :)

August 15, 2012

Single because

My heart has a different flow
My eyes don't always glow
My lips have been dismissed
My thoughts have been dissed
My femininity isn't your wish
So you stepped out; forget this bitch
But you don't know what you missed
Cause a girly boy can't live like this
Someday, when I move on to better ground
This heart of mine will instill a man found
So play your games all you please
But with love; you won't steal my key
Cause love isn't so cheap
I'm still human as you can see
And haters can't fuck with me

August 13, 2012

Heads up (UPDATED)

My commenting system works like this; you have to login into an OpenID (such as Yahoo! or Google) account to post a comment; otherwise you will not be able to leave a comment.

An easier and more effective solution is to log into your Google Account, Twitter, or other network and join my blog via the blue button that is underneath "Readers" over to the right of my blog posts here.

Then you can comment without an issue :)

And yes, you will join because you love me so much that you must join my blog or else you will feel empty in life because I am the only reason you want to be alive. Yes, I am your dream. Come live me baby.

UPDATE: A new rating has been added. To suit those who may have something slightly more negative to say about a post; I've given you the "REALLY?" rating. For now, you only get one negative rating; though in the coming weeks, days, months, or whenever I feel like it might find other ones popping up as well :)

Rating system

So I incorporated my own rating system. For all of my posts from this point on; you can have a little bit of input without having to say something clever and witty in response to my posts.

Let's see, my favorite one so far is "FABU" and "MARRY ME" because let's be know you want me...I want me...everyone wants's true; Europe can even agree...


So rate all you'd's completely anonymous...I look forward to bringing in more additions over the coming weeks <3

To my dearest love; I wish you well today as you go back into recovery mode...I know in my heart; you will overcome this and that God is on your side baby...keep telling those cute corny jokes and keep on are loved mon cherie bel ami!

R.I.P Dear Candle clan

Or at least to three of you. Yes; I burn candles rather quick but who can deny the scent of Sweet Pea in the morning. I find it inviting and seductive when a man has candles lit for me.

He blind folds me, carries me to the bed, and kisses me all over...ever so gently and then we look in each others eyes to find...

That we are both laughing our ass off because bitch; you just caught the living room on fire. Good for you!

See kids...romance've been warned ;)

Still...who wants to make out? :D

Can you get freckles there?

Apparently the Indian in me blossomed more and I hadn't noticed it until today. Not to get extreme but you will be seeing my ass today.

I pondered upon a small freckle. One I never noticed on my ass until this morning when I was changing clothes. Ah...I'm good looks are already failing aren't they? :(

Stupid freckle...

Power seeker

Be doomed. I'm onto you.

Fucking your bubble up

I started dating again. Yea, the fence had to be torn down today. It was getting rusty anyway.

The new guy is quite a great guy. I mean, he has great hair. Great style. A real sweetheart and yet he holds that one quality that I've been great with.

Someone who really gives a shit less what someone else thinks. 

See, you are human after all and that in itself should be enough to say that you are worth something. You didn't get a brain put in your head without reason.

So, some great things about him are:

-Always on time
-Knows exactly what to say
-Loves candles like I do (yay candles)
-Eats the foods that I like
-Dances horribly but has fun at it
-Smiles whenever I want him to
-Looks great in black
-Absolutely pleasing
-Loves me for me
-Risky but reasonable
-Loves to sing (like me)
-Takes great pictures
-Doesn't mind makeup or girly clothes
-Wants to be with me regardless of others
-Unconditionally states the obvious
-Works hard to make that $
-Doesn't mind a nice fuck on the side
-Major sweet tooth
-Loves romantic movies and porn
-Will travel for food
-Smells great
-Feels. Amazing!
-Still young at heart

Here's a picture of him. I know what you're thinking; he's unbelievably gorgeous and too pretty for a loser like you. You're right. He is; because he's mine. So fuck off baby boo. 

PS: If you are fine with a girly boy; admit it. Don't be stupid and play faces like your Gaga or something. This isn't Regis & Kelly.

Be a man and give some love for a change without picking too much shit to cover up your insecurities. When I walk down the street; I say...fuck haters...I made life easier for most of them back in the day because I was the first one that actually admitted that I love sucking dick...but really...our world is desperate for some get busy boys

August 12, 2012

For a limited time

My blog will be in it's classic mode. As many readers had witnessed; I've jumped between the new Google "Dynamic" layout and the classic Blogger layouts. Today, I've made the decision to stick with the old layout until it is deemed invalid.

A major part of this reason is compatibility. I want to have support for instant messaging while reading my blog. In the coming month or so; you might see this feature jump in and out. This isn't because I'm indecisive; it's because I want to find the best solution for this need and sometimes that means a little experimentation on my behalf. We'll see how it turns out after the big shutdown of Meebo on July 11th.

Regardless, my blog is still the same blog it's always been. A place where I can vent, tell all, and instill my writing and creative flow. So here we go today; my classic blog is back. You might notice some other new additions to the blog as well. They were long awaited additions. One of which is a proper need considering my blog has become international this past year. To my international readers; thank you so much for taking time out of your day to notice me. Me; of all people in this world. Because of you; I can write in confidence that someone will read it or even find inspiration from it.

A BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VALERIO SMOLDERS! :) You look dashing as always dear and try not to get too caked up ;)



And every single penny was worth it! :)

Yes, I got to spend time speaking to a lovely soothing voice from a far. I tallied up the minutes we spoke and it was 103. A nice amount if you ask me. Technically however we spoke longer cause we had a prior conversation on Viber. 

While it is a nice app; I do prefer times where I can spend some money on his lovely voice.

After all; he is worth it <3 oh, beautiful lover friend ;)

August 11, 2012

Stairway of Ghosts (lyrics)

Taste of poison on your lips
Too heartless to consider this
It's late and I'm already over it
Don't try to renew my wish

Underneath this skin is a different kid
Swallowed up by life; secrets come to light
Sick of hearing no; ready to go
Here I'll be; alone
For you...oh sunlight

Years beyond what seems to be good
Can't fathom the truth and never understood
So we beat up ourselves for some type of resentment
The door is still open but you won't go in

Underneath this skin is a different kid
Swallowed up by life; secrets come to light
Sick of hearing no; ready to go
Here I'll be; alone
For you

Taste of poison on your lips
The moments dead so get rid of it
Eyes wide shut and I'm still taking a trip
The mighty loss of co-dependence

And I'll still change my ways

Underneath this skin is a different kid
Swallowed up by life; secrets come to light
Sick of hearing no; ready to go
Here I'll be; alone
For you

Here I'll be; alone
For you

August 10, 2012

Free love

I watched a documentary today on sex in the 70s and how it revolutionized our knowledge of sex and diseases today. The whole time I couldn't feel but a passion to wonder what it would have been like to have seen those days; to have witnessed history in the making. Back in the 70s; sex was easy to find; it was on every street corner; in every alley way; and constantly happening.

I've thought of what today is like and it's not that different; the only real difference is safer sex is more prominent and sex has become a more private activity than it was in those days. I've heard from friends that Germany resembles a lot of the 70s style sexual energy. You can walk through an alley in Berlin (so I've heard) and meet a guy that will show you a good time. There are bath houses built specifically to tailor to men who are looking to get some action. You can find them all over but mostly in big cities like California; New York; London; and so on.

Maybe it's my inner vixen within; maybe since I've seen this documentary; I kind of wish I could have experienced it all back in those days. To have learned and known what these men (who are much older now) know. To have founded pieces of our history in just living and having fun together. I say free love is important but all within safety of course...still, I understand what free love meant in those wasn't really just sex...but connectivity between two people...a connection to feel life itself

So to the gay men of the 70s; and Harvey Milk; thank you for all that you did. Because of you; gay men today can freely be open...we can hold hands where ever we go...we can smile happily after swallowing that load...or dance like crazy lunatics on the dance floor before we go home to an orgy...those were some crazy days...but ones that shaped our future...and brought our generation today into it's forefront

August 8, 2012

Grunge it

Some days I just want to revert to 16 again.
Took a picture with my new 100% human hair wig. Looks lovely so far and I can style it in a lot of ways :)

August 7, 2012

10 Beauty Mistakes You're Probably Making

10 Beauty Mistakes You're Probably Making

The above link is for anyone like me who really tries to pay attention to my aging. I want to be youthful when I'm 35. Rather than looking like I'm 45.

Take a look at the link included on this here post and see that sexy burst out in you :)


August 6, 2012

Love this song :)

German love

So maybe not a boyfriend or anything like that; clearly not what I picture BUT my friend Michael is rather dashing; even in his 30s :)

I particularly love his expression in this here photo:

Mister; you look rather coldplayish today. I really like it. Such a wonderful friend to have. I still can't see why you've been single for so long!

August 5, 2012

Co-workers do care

Today during my extreme load of freight and busy busy customer service; I was told to go on break. As I walked into the conference room and saw the Red Velvet cake that Ms. Frances made me; as well as a bag that read; "puppy love"...I couldn't help but smile...It's nice when you're noticed for a few minutes; even if it's at a place that you sometimes can't stand

We talked for a bit and ate some cake (really delicious by the way) and then I opened the bag to see the candle set I wanted from our candle section :) (Sweet Pea scent by the way...a favorite of mine)

Overall the day came to a shitty end through a rude bit of customers but remembering my lunch hour and such; I'm able to overcome it.

Thank you Ms. Frances; you make coming to work worth while!

August 3, 2012

Signs of a business peep

If you have more than 5 alarms set on your phone; you might be a business peep. Pretty much it means that you are already business savvy and you have what it takes to run your own business if you needed to.

I counted and I have a total (on average) of 8 alarms set on my phone per day of work. I do a lot of things at work and a lot of responsibility is laid on me to get things completed. While it's not always finished when I leave (this is common for all employee's) - I still do my best to try and make an effort.

The alarms I've set lately are more so reminders; things like 'Clock into MyGuide' or 'Take meds' tend to be the subject of many of these interruptions within my day. I'm horrible with memory. Though, ask any's a problem among many of our kind...perhaps a movie about it could suffice the anguish I have to know a name of someone I see somewhat or to remember when an important date is in a new friends life.

Ah, the life of a worker...can't get anymore entertaining than that...or can it?

Gray (lyrics)

The clock ticks on but the sun ain't strong
This air is dry but your hands are like seas
Black hair and a pocket of keys

Tell me how you do it
Spin through lights like the wind
Tell me where you want to go
Dancing through your own show
I'd like to be there...someday

Words on paper stutter like bullets
Used to blame the world
Twice is the danger of it
Believe that your the girl

Tell me how you do it
Spin through lights like the wind
Tell me where you want to go
Dancing through your own show
I'd like to be there...someday

We travel these airwaves like transit pace
Young eyes that can't carry the weight
Growing old like the pebbles beneath the water
We'll figure it out before we go home

Still I'd like to learn from someone...again

Tell me how you do it
Spin through lights like the wind
Tell me where you want to go
Dancing through your own show
I'd like to be there...someday

I'd like to say that nothing is changed
It's change that makes you glad to seize the day

And I'm on my journey to you Mr. Gray


So it's 3:17pm right now and I'm working a 4 hour shift today. This weekend has to be one of the worst weekends next to holiday weekends considering that it was not only our payday weekend; military payday, but also many marines coming home from Iraq this week.

What does this mean for retail? It means that my feet will be hurting more; I'll be even more exhausted; and I'll want to go home sooner. Then again, a job is a job and I'm lucky to even have one; so I can't complain too much. Still, it's a bit much sometimes when you try to do it all as one person; clearly knowing it takes more than one person to run a department.

Well, our air went out yesterday. It costed us $81.00 even for 4 box fans just to keep us somewhat breathable. The good news is; it's not as bad as it was in the trailer we lived in before. We're hardly sweating in comparison to those days and the fans are a big help; though all they've done much of is blow hot air back at you; depending on your room temperature.

I've learned that out of all the rooms in the house; mine is either the hottest or the coldest room to sleep in. I've had a bad history with picking the crappy rooms. I believe it's more so because I have two windows so close together and the sun shines into my room more than anyone elses. Ah, winter time is horrible of course, it's like you just can't keep warm in my room. You could literally sit down a hot soda; and within 30 minutes have a nice cold beverage to drink. I'm not making this stuff up here.

Still, I'm thankful to even have a place to lay my head. In such a sad world; so many go without and everyday I wake up; I have to remind myself that what I have is luxury in comparison to those out there who have to fight for food and survival. I feel horrible for those people. I wish I could cure the world of those problems; to make our world a healthy, fun, and happy place to live in, but that's not the way fate would have it.

Either way, I'd rather be low class; then no class at all on the economic poll.

500GB of birthday coming up!

I decided that I would get me a special birthday gift; after all, I've got the blisters on my toes to prove I've earned my gift.

For $63.13 (tax included in this total), I snagged my very own personal hard drive to store all of my files on. So, regardless of what computer I have; or get for that matter; I will always have a wealthy abundance of space to get everything I want.

So far, I think I'm going to use it towards downloading movies when I can. I'll then have my own movie collection in a nice blue digital box. It's branded by Toshiba so I know that it will work well and as far as the space; it will take me quite some time to fill up 500GB; let alone a 16GB phone (my Galaxy Nexus has 16GB of memory) but either way; I'd say, this gift will do me well. No more copying files to the flash drive and then erasing them every time I want to transfer another one.

Simplicity; in digital living. Can't beat it.

August 2, 2012

It's my birthday everyday

Or at least it makes me feel so. A lovely red velvet cake for me to devour.
The big 23. I never get lit candles really so this is special. I made my wish

Please note: This post isn't ON my birthday; my birthday is actually August 1st.

On the hunt

So since late last night, I've been going crazy typing in Google searches for cheap or even SIM card companies that offer international calling for a low rate to the Netherlands. After much searching; it all boiled down to a service I already use with Google. Google Voice.

It actually matches my old cell provider's rates which is good considering my old cell provider is what I started chatting on with international friends and so on in the day. See, back in the day, it only costed me $0.15 per minute to make a call to the Netherlands; but that never worked considering that mobile numbers from the Netherlands wasn't included. So, I resulted to having there call initiate the conversation; rather than make the call for myself.

Well, today I added a $10.00 credit to my Google Voice account. After reading through many of the policies, looking up the rate charges, and so on. I've come to an agreement with using Google Voice as my international call provider. $10.00 isn't much and I guarantee; I'll fly through that in a day or at least a couple of days but it would always be worth it. Especially for a dear friend.

The rate per minute is only $0.15 a minute for mobile numbers in the Netherlands; and only $0.02 per minute for calls to a land-line number in the Netherlands. Not only have my hopes been gifted here but that's the cheapest rates I've ever found in any provider and with how well Google is in their telephony service; I'd say I snagged a rather sweet deal. In the future however; I may add up to $50.00 at a time; the only downfall is that you can only have a maximum of $70.00 credit in your balance but I'm certain; I won't have to go over that much and if so; would be well worth it considering who would be on the other line

On a side note; I'm not sure if this indicates international user support but I would say it would be fair to say it does; Google Voice has a statement below in the account settings reading this:

Please note: If your billing address is within the EU, you will be charged the applicable VAT rate for your country on top of the purchased calling credit amount - for example, if you order €10 of calling credit and the VAT rate for your country is 19%, you will be charged €11.90.
I'm not sure how high costs are in the Netherlands but if it's cheaper; I'd say...try it sometime...otherwise; carry on :)

August 1, 2012

Geared up

See, us divas have to get our beauty rest...luckily...there's a mask for that ;)

That age of 23

So today is my special day. The day I celebrate having been alive for so long. Yet it's the tender years passing by that I realize...I'm still young and still lovely as I was when I was a's all from faith and through seeing love in other eyes... :)

Blessed is those that carry the stone. For their stone is their guidance. It's a quote I never understood but now I feel more connected to it. It clearly gives a message. One that I have used lately to guide me.

So happy birthday to me and to all of the other Leo's celebrating this month :) especially to dear Val. You are aging gracefully don't be are like wine after all...they get better with time <3