July 31, 2012

Compare internationally

High food costs and so on...while your on that luxury trip to Spain or enjoying the cheeses of the Netherlands, keep in mind the difference in prices as you go along.

Cheese is cheaper in Europe comparing to here in the States. Have a look at one of the sites below:

So in actuality; who is cheaper? You decide.

Madisons (lyrics)

She's got bourbon on her lips
New man against her hips
Daily rush from fingertips
She wishes away

Late night talk show hosts
Color up what you didn't know
Tabloid says figures a and b
Girls laugh when they hit the screen
She wishes away

Spin the dial for a different voice
Someone on the line with a better choice
You wonder, you wonder
What happens with your life
The coastal waters still lie
Cause you're not coming home
Goodnight, blue eyes

Her tattoo is label making by the drug
Her silence didn't surprise much
Shifting the pews with a few shaking heads
She didn't intend on being a regret
Still no one could know
Girl wasn't broken after all

Spin the dial for a different voice
Someone on the line with a better choice
You wonder, you wonder
What happens with your life
The coastal waters still lie
Cause you're not coming home
Goodnight, blue eyes

Don't wait for the words to make a chase
For sorry hunger is another waste
You're not too young to let them take
But don't let them take what they tried to break

Spin the dial for a different voice
Someone on the line with a better choice
You wonder, you wonder
What happens with your life
The coastal waters still lie
Cause you're not coming home
Goodnight, blue eyes

And as you place down your bottle
That's the place you ascend
With sad memories; it throttles
It's not another end
When you get to begin again


I'm getting better finally; thanks to some pills and a little thing I call, faith. The only issue is when all I think about it getting these red bumps to disappear sooner and getting back to my makeup wearing; beautiful smile, self.

I appreciate honesty but when it comes to my beauty; please...lie a little more than usual when I'm sick...I prefer to have a little hope than to over analyze my thought on just how pale I've gotten or how much baggage is showing under my eyes during the day.

Still, soon; I'll get to be the pretty boy again. Or in some cases; the pretty girl, considering most people (guys and girls) think that I'm indeed; a female.

It's the voice I swear and yet, I'm thankful to have it. Lot's of innocent power that I can garnish with it :D

Well, sleepy clouds are rolling in; time to hangout with mr. sandman again...He never gets old...just boring some days; though we're quite content together ;)

July 28, 2012

Only my father

So from time to time, my dad will be on his computer, going insane over some funny YouTube videos. So far, he's the only person I know of, that will laugh carelessly at his computer to some of the most ridiculous videos you could ever see.

My dad is truly a child at heart; something I hope for when I grow older. He's always laughing randomly at things, or he'll burst into a repeat mode of crazy tunes and jokes for hours on end, until eventually...he's driving you crazy.

Either way, it's great to see his happiness from time to time; it's nice to know that maybe getting old isn't such a bad thing...that there is something good to it after all

July 27, 2012

It started

And it keeps going. I don't know what type of infection it is. I just know I caught it from Dylan. He had in fanti go on his face and some unknown viral infection on his hands. The same place that I happen to have all of these small red itchy bumps.

I hate this :(

It's all in the family

Not only did I catch a stupid viral infection but I managed to get my stepbrother addicted to True Blood. A great show :)

Today will prove interesting.


Goldfrapp inspired.

Random lyrics

Days are numbered
Pages get torn away
Lights go dimmer
The silence plays
Eyes looking for truth
Hearts paving the way

July 26, 2012

The worst sickness ever

Well, maybe not so much the worst but it's the most aggravating and embarrassing. Since the other day of getting a fever and sore throat (sore throat still bothering me by the way) - I've dealt with some unfortunate and rare happenings.

First off, I never get athlete's foot or cold sores really bad around my lips or the dreaded itchy red bumps on the fingers ordeal but today is among one of the many days that I'm having to face it. It's like when you get sick sometimes, all of these annoying shitty things pop up and start making your life a living hell.

Look, all I ask is that I look decent when I'm at was the first day back and I felt awful...I was too embarrassed to smile; I kept applying lip balm to my lips in hopes of miraculously making the cold sores hands itched a lot (mind you; I wash my hands like a maniac...sometimes more than 5 times a day - true story) and yet, I'm still bombarded with this extremely diabolical plot against my beauty.

To Pandora...bitch, why did you open the fucking box to begin see what you did right?

See, Pandora was a weak weak gal...she opened the box and then bang....everyone had to pay...stupid girl

Eh, either way, the good news is; these things do clear up in a matter of days and usually are not long's just annoying when they come...thank GOD I didn't have a date or anything...imagine that one; "oh are you babe?"...."i'm good...what's up with the herpes on your lips?"...."it's not herpes asshole, it's cold sores"

Ah, one must will come back to least I still have my beautiful eye color :(

-Carmex moisturizing lip balms is perfect for cold sores; it soothes the feeling of them and kills any germs that may be contributing to their arrival. Another tip from what someone told me was to use ear wax (yes, I's nasty to think of but it works and it's a good solution for those who can't afford any Carmex)

-Hand bumps are usually known as a form of Eczema; it is temporary for most people and quite often times very very common. Don't be alarmed by them if you get them; they will clear up on their on in time. Be sure to treat them by keeping your hands clean and moisturized. Avoid anything with chemicals or alcohol.

-Sore throats can actually come from both dehydration and from sleeping with your mouth open; causing dry mouth. In this case; drink plenty of water (ice water is best) and take some Tylenol (be sure to eat with the Tylenol though) and gargle tons of warm salt water

Workers diet

Ah, yes. The delectable and incredibly unhealthy but still filling way to fill the tummy. Tonight my family was arguing over soda. Soda seems to be like crack in our country; you see it everywhere, everyone drinks it; it's a part of almost every diet and every meal. It's cheap in some places and expensive in others.

So while my family was arguing over soda; I was agitated and said "fuck this, I'll go buy everyone a fucking soda from the drive thru" and off to the drive thru we went. I started with $11 and came home with $6 to last me until Thursday next week (the day after my birthday) and so I developed an eating plan to not only fill my tummy but to bargain my way through until the day of my check.

My diet until that day would consist of ramen noodle cups, 40 cent sodas from the vending machine and if I wanted a dessert; a delicious peanut butter and jelly sandwich (courtesy of Walmart)

You see, when you're almost broke or poor; you devise your most bargain savvy plans to indulge without crying about it later.

With $6.00 to my name; I can cover the three days of lunches just in buying the cheapest possible fixes. At most for a dessert; I could spend up to $1.00 per honey bun or substitute for a bag of $0.55 cookies.

Regardless, I'm the queen b of living it up cheapo style. Trust and believe it; if you're hungry and you only had $20 left to last you until your next paycheck (most of us live like this here actually) - I could develop a somewhat healthy eating plan for you just in that. Right now; Asparagus and some of the other veggies we sell are cheap; so be sure to check on your produce.

When in doubt; buy a cheap bag of assorted fruit and utilize them for meals; for've got a package of noodles, or rice...only two apples, and maybe...1 orange left...oh and maybe some other condiments like soy sauce and sugar...

Well, create your own stir fry meal and then distribute it evenly in gladware containers to take to work...drinks; buy flavor-aid packs ($0.99 per pack) and 1 lbs of sugar; yes, the sugar is what costs the most in this equation but if you do it right; your gallon can last you until the next check or if you prefer; you can divide your funds to equally par to one $0.40 soda per meal.

In reality; you may not like what you have come to. Maybe you hate noodles or you're just not into drinking a soda even; in whatever way...there is a way to fix it and if you think in terms of cheap cheap cheap; you'll find it gets easier in time to make it happen...when it comes to ramen noodles by the way; buy them in bulk packages of 12 or higher; this way, if you still need to eat a few more days after can

Can you believe it...

I'll be 23 next Thursday. I haven't made plans or anything considering I have to work the day after but still...maybe a cupcake and renting a fun new movie...or a trip to cold stone creamery :) they do have some delicious ice cream. Or a nice grab from Dunkin Donuts?

I will remember one is but another day I must not go overboard and yet...I could use a nice lemon drop or a strawberry daiquiri... eh, we'll see :)

brainwaves: Let's Talk Miles Here.

brainwaves: Let's Talk Miles Here.: early this morning I heard your voice again and your laugh you said familiar things even and told me something I didn't know we...

It's beautiful and cute at the same time. How is it that such a beautiful soul is able to find ways to delight even the most complicated of complicated... <3

Thank you gorgeous. This touches my heart and brings warmth to my spirit. You're such a wonderful guy :)

PS: I was going to comment on your blog but apparently; blogger doesn't want to show the comment box anymore :(

It's 3:34am and...

I can't sleep. I was awakened earlier by the painful pains of heartburn. Perhaps it's all the water I drank or something I ate. I wish it would go away. I've tried the burping trick but found it to be unsuccessful.

So dear doctors, what is a quick...easy...and non-stressful way to get rid of heartburn or acid reflux?

I leave you with this picture in expression of my anger towards heartburn:

July 25, 2012

I call it a sign of high class

To wear a wig. I will wear them too. So no one can stop me. Besides, I look fabulous in wigs...and I'm good at pulling them off too ;)

I'm thinking of trying this look; yes it's for black people but you know what...I'll rock whatever I want to ;)

Yay porn!

So I got a porno sampler in the mail. It proves to be strange since I didn't order it but a nice addition I suppose.

We will be watching with popcorn later ;D hahahahaha

AutoRap on the Google Play store

Dylan and Barry's new single!

July 24, 2012

Soon I'll be tipping my glass

To hopeful overcomings and proposals. A man and his life; a man and his lover. Things will get better for you and I want to be part of it. I want to know how things go. I want to enjoy that happiness with you in every step you take together with the wonderful and caring guy you are with. You both fit well together and I am extremely proud and happy that both of you are together; it warms my spirit to know that I helped love blossom. That I gave back something that I almost lost at one point in my life.

Two beautiful people and beautiful souls. I couldn't ask for anything more :)

Do you wanna?

Look tired or look like a stoner. I can guarantee it isn't fair either way.

Chya ya babyyyyy <3

Old fashioned

There are many reasons as to why I wouldn't do YouTube. First, the ads. I hate ads and I wouldn't want to subject myself to dealing with it (even in my own videos) and secondly, I'm not a video type of person. Not to say I'd never make a video; I just don't have the niche for it.

I prefer words. Listening to audio. These two are what I grew up on and they were the primary source of communicating. Still, after a recent documentary on the lovely life of Chris Crocker; it makes me wonder what it would be like to try the whole being crazy with a video camera and letting my heart out. I doubt however, that my talents would emerge with that motive. So I continue in my paper mode. From which I like.

July 23, 2012

Well that went downhill

So tonight I decided to do something I rarely do...hookup

The guy is a Taurus so I know the sex is supposed to be great between us but I'm not satisfied...

Look, let me get blunt here...if your going to fuck me....make me cum while you do it...

He's apparently stingy...not attractive...last time I'm hooking up with you dude

And....that's my little bit NSFW rant...

;) Time to enjoy this crazy storm tonight

July 18, 2012

Who's that girl

***WARNING*** This website will not be held liable for any smiles that may be cracked while viewing this photograph ***WARNING***

Or boy? Yes. It's your favorite wet dream. The beautiful; Branni :)

I love British movies

British slang always gets me. I fall in love with it. It's very old fashioned and very straightforward without such a vile and vulgar sound to it. It's like the English were genius at language back in the day.

Ah, a lovely chick flick kind of movie... Agnus, Thongs, and Perfect Snogging


New photo blog

It's no surprise that I fancy having many hobbies. Like an Aries; I get very bored after some time and then it's a means of having to find something productive or fun that will grab my attention. Though I can't do something extreme; I can take my own photos in some small way. An interpretative view into my world.

Thanks to my phone and some lovely apps; I'm able to provide some rather nice photography. Here's the link to my new photo blog. Follow or not; either way, it's where most of my newer stuff will be posted...while the pictures that don't make it will land here ;)

See; everybody wins!


Recently I tried out an application which is installable on Windows and it has shown quite useful. I can take my phone to the desktop without having to buy special cables and a monitor just to do so. It's really quite easy too.

All you do is install this program on your computer; open it and sync it with your phone. To sync however; you have to install the app from the Play store. It's quick and easy however and you won't have to do anything special to get the cloud connection to work.

I've got almost all of my apps from my phone on here; including this one. The Blogger app. Among one of my many favorites considering I can blog on the go with it :)

You can get the program here:

I have a right

To want to leave this place. To make something different happen. To be able to sleep in again.

Whether it's parents or the brother from another; I am constantly losing sleep due to people being excessively loud; look, it's called an inside voice for a reason. People need rest when they've worked 2-11 for almost a full week straight prior to their three days off. Just saying.

So as part of my goals; I'm going to plan my escape (so to speak) immediately after I get my car. I may end up living in a hotel...I really don't know but I know this much...anywhere would be better than here at the moment...I'm only crabby because it's not often I get days off like this and it's almost as if my brother and his friend are purposely staying here and being as loud as they can be to piss me off. It's definitely something they would do.

Eh, either way...I'm sick of this half sleep nonsense...can't a boy get some rest these days? :/

July 17, 2012

The only Courtney Love album...

That was ever really any good...

Live Through This (1994)

A beautiful song unheard

After skimming through a list of downloaded songs I got from sites like and other places that aspiring musicians go; I found this song. A song which isn't released to anyone publicly or anything but has a very euphoric electronic sound; new age melodies; and a beautiful singer to accompany it. I only wish that it had been me that made this song. Have a listen via the player above! :)

In honor of...

I'll be 23 on August 1st. I've searched a bit for a song that I thought was cute and well; though Madonna's new album isn't all good; I found one song that is actually pretty good :)

It's called "B-Day Song" and I like it so far. It fits for the occassion that comes up; though replace "girl" with "boy" and we'll be on the right page for me.

"It's my birthday everyday!" is my favorite line...the way it's said is just hilarious <3

Here's a listen:

July 16, 2012

I love it when...

I'm doing my returns at the CSM department and a guy holding his girlfriends hand walks by and is checking me out. Stop hiding cutie ;) I don't bite...too hard <3

My favorite place

An all you can eat pizza, pasta, and salad for only $5.49 :)

July 13, 2012

After 3 months...I finally got it!

Yes, it's that wonderful little 10% discount card from Walmart. Let's see, benefits of this card are pretty much average. I get 10% off general merchandise and fresh produce and select merchandise on but I don't think I get 10% off on Deli meals though; which sucks but oh well. One must digress. I do love the Deli meals though. Good stuff over there.

Though it's only 10%, it's a discount. For that, I thank you dear employer. Your card will get used A LOT.

July 12, 2012

My favorite song from the Torches album

Mesmerized by their beats and their odd lyrics; Foster The People invite that 90s vibe back into the realm of our modern dancers. It's different. I love it.

Future goals

This is meant for me personally; so don't be confused if you read this and think "What the heck is this stuff?". Rest assured, I didn't feel like opening up my note taking app; so this is more sufficient (and permanent really) for me.

1. Save back $800 for my trip to see my nephews and my sister in Randleman (+$150 is added to $650 for any extra costs or mishaps)

2. Save back a minimum of $2000 for a car; maximum of $4000

3. Find a second job. (combine if possible)

4. Attempt to write a book (whether it be short or otherwise)

5. Apply for food stamps (if at all able)

6. Find a boyfriend (at least a temp)

7. Learn to play a musical instrument

July 11, 2012

Let it rain...

Photos shot with the i9250 Galaxy Nexus using Pudding Camera & Pixlr-O-Matic

Take professional photographs with Galaxy Nexus

("Heaven Sent" using Pixlr-O-Matic)

("Guiding Light" using Pixlr-O-Matic)

(Original Photo using an i9250 Galaxy Nexus)

(Original Photo using an i9250 Galaxy Nexus)

NOTE: Click on each image to view them in their full resolution @ 2048px

Some people have argued that Apple's iPhone camera is better than most Android phones. I beg to differ. See it's all about the software that you use to take the photographs. You can always edit them to your liking if need be. I took all four of these with my Galaxy Nexus. 

Only two of them are edited (minor editing) and the other two show off the beauty of the phone's quality itself. Compare and tell me what you think in the comments below. Do you think Android phone's are finally coming into grounds with the iSight camera included in many of Apple's iPhone devices?

We may have differences but...

Together, we work and get things done. Me and Michelle have had some misunderstandings lately and though it's been a bit tragic in some of the conversations we've had. I've learned a lot about business and about how to keep your ethics in tact. Though her and I don't always agree on how the job should be done; she still believes in me. When I came in for my interview and told her about my writing and how much it's meant to me; she knew then that she wanted to help me in my job so that it would expand to my writing.

She told me the other day after a conversation that I should write down every thought I have in a notebook. No matter how small or big or how vague or bold it may seem. Writing down things are key to letting go of any part of a situation you choose to and I'm learning that by me writing things down before I say them; I can vent and get my positive outlook back without letting the darker side of me take control. I guess in a sense you could say that I've learned that what I might want to consider doing; is journalism and/or writing books. I know, I probably have a long way to go before I reach the full picture for that but as a hobby so far; it's a start. I know and I'm confident that in my belief of everyone who supports me; I can do it. I can be a success. I can make a difference in some way; whether it be just writing about things that I feel or think about or writing down important events in my life that have helped shape me to this point in my life.

I feel older than I am these days. I've already started getting gray hairs (stress is proven to speed up the process of graying/discoloration in hair by the way) and I hardly care about makeup anymore. Often times now; I go to work without it because it's hot and well, who do I need to impress. I'm fine how I am and if a guy or business people can't accept the real me; they could never accept the dolled up version of me neither. Regardless however, I'm confident that it doesn't matter. At the end of the day; I come to work to do a job. A job that may not be the best in the world or one I planned for but nonetheless; it's a place to grow. A place to really find myself within the real world again.

So to my manager Michelle, thank you for showing you want to help me and for telling me that I have a lot of potential. I think in time, I'll learn to grow into the person I am meant to be. I'm meant to do something in life. I just know so and I have to keep going to find it. Someday, just someday...I'll be as bright as the northern lights...always inviting something good into my dream.

July 9, 2012

Coffee or no Coffee?

I really want one but I doubt it's really worth the money it would take to get me some coffee bean love. I've been contemplating on buying a Keurig machine due to the high demand we have and how easy to use they seem to be. I really love the Dunkin Donuts coffee flavors and I know this machine would be put to great use while I'm preparing in the week to go to work in the morning/afternoon and it could really be a benefit but the cost of having this luxury is a price I cannot bare. $15.00 or more just for 16 cups of coffee; I'm not sure if that is worth it in the end. 

Considering the fact that I can get more cups of coffee with a traditional machine is quite an important factor in this decision. Eh, we'll see. Meanwhile, Garden boy has been nicer to me lately and he's apologized for shutting me out and treating me like scum as well. I killed it with kindness though; it's a job and whether I like it or not; dating someone at work would never be a wise decision anyway. Besides, I hardly have time to be in love anymore; now that work has taken over my life.

Coffee could cure my sadness of this notion. Strangely enough; I swear I keep seeing his face every now and again...this time he's shorter and I think; 18 or least he looks such an age...he's cute to say the least I can still remember after all this time; I do have good taste in the appearance of the men I date :) even if half of them lie; cheat; or leave me. Life goes on; and so does the love.

How you know your working hard enough

Your feet hurt, you're super exhausted, you're hot, and you're very very thirsty and hungry when you come home.

Ah, the working class of America. Gotta love us baby.

July 6, 2012

To go with a new look soon

I'll post a cover when it's ready of "Let It Take You"...a beautiful jazzy track from a favorite familiar voice I'm decadent over. Her vibrant voice of angel sound is driving me into's all clear...I must continue dreams...they are all I have left at night

I'm learning the beauty to open my heart let love appear when it feels ready...I look forward to having a loving man in my life at some point...whom ever he is...let it take you <3

July 2, 2012

Bullying at the workplace

Some of us deal with it everyday and others only see it happen once in a blue moon or never run into these issues. Bullying is a very widely delayed issue. It's one that work ethics should always mention regardless of the stature of business you are conducting within the facility. 

Today was a prime example to why I choose to use the Open Door Policy (a policy which intends to stamp out bullying at the workplace and allows an associate to voice their problems to management)

 As I was unloading freight onto shelves as per usual; I had a conversation within the process with my co-worker; Frances. Her and I often talk through out the usual work we're given because it makes it go by quicker and it helps us to do an even better job. It's notable that management already told us it is okay to talk while working so long as you complete your tasks. I make sure every day/night I leave; my floors are clear and all work has been's not easy, but I tend to get it done every time.

A member of management has been bullying me. A form of retaliation of sorts. Accusing me of not being productive enough or "talking" too much. This was also given to Frances as well even though we complete our work and we often times are talking about our work in the process. Again, it is OKAY to have conversations as long as the work gets done. This came straight from a Co-Manager with whom I took up my concerns with earlier this evening. See, as a Leo...if you fuck with me; I WILL take action against it.

That's as bluntly as I can put it. It's not fair to co-workers like myself whom give their all to ensure consumers get the best experience in our department. It's bad enough that we're bitched at if we assist a customer for too long (yet customer service is our number 1 priority).

Ah, the corporate life. This is America baby and America is one big hole of dead end jobs, poor living, and stressful situations. Sound familiar? If it does, I encourage you to take action...don't get walked can do better and deserve better. Ciao ciao darlings.

The British are coming


I'm planning on covering the song listed above. It's one of my favorite songs lately; the beat and the lyrics are very rhythmic and key to the type of voice I think I can really work with. It's a very British sound but it's beautiful and I admire European musicians so well for how in tune they are and how artistic they become. This is the major reason as to why I want to move to Europe someday; just to embody the music and the art. Two things of which I am fond of quite a lot and want to partake in within my lifetime.

Listen and admire the possibility of my voice covering this track :)

I think I can do a good enough job.