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In a home of...

I live in a home where homophobia goes with the flow like it's decent behavior. I can't admit that I know that all my stepbrothers and their friends dislike me greatly because of my sexual orientation but it's time I vent for a bit since I haven't in some time. I'm tired of all the bullshit.

I work a great job and pay for meals that hateful people eat. I'm tired of paying for hate when it never does anything for me to help appreciate my presence here. I'm better off in my own place.

Everyone fights; including me and my dad and to top it off; I can't really be myself here because I feel like I'm a stranger in my own home. Tommy acts annoyed with me often times and when I talk about anything; it's barely heard or acknowledged. Nick is a major asshole usually and will buy everyone else something but considering the "fairness" act that is supposed to happen; he neglects my presence because of his phobia of me.

I haven't seen my boyfrie…

Second day on the job!

Yesterday was spent doing training or CBL's as Walmart calls it. I learned a lot and at the same time; I was struggling towards the end of the day to keep awake; it's all the fluorescent lighting I think...really gets to you after awhile

Either way, today is the second day of training and CBL's and I believe after you finish your CBL's is the fun part; going on the floor and doing your job!

Wish me well everyone :)

It's official!

You are looking at the newest member of Walmart. My job is to zone, stock/restock, and provide high quality customer service within the Domestics/Home Living department. In other words; I'll be a gay Martha Stewart for Walmart.

Tuesday was my orientation. I did great and I had a lot of fun meeting new members as well as some that have worked with Walmart for years. There are a real great bunch of employee's at this store and I'm so honored to be working along side there teams.

I never pictured myself as being a Walmart employee but looking in the mirror with my box cutter attached to my pants and my badge clipped to my collar; I feel like I am finally going places. Like I matter to someone and they respect my decisions and opinions. Walmart may not be everyone's ideal work choice but for me; it's perfect. Especially considering all the OCD's I have. Mostly with cleanliness, organizing, and color coordination.

Someone once said that I could never do it. That I w…


So I got a call from Walmart this morning informing me to come in on Tuesday at 10am for orientation :)
This is it you guys. My beginning to a good job for me. I'm nervous and yet super excited at the same time. This is my chance to really shine and show my potential in the world.
Thanks to my family for pushing me to apply..for believing in me when all else had failed me...and for enstilling in me the gift of hope and positivity. I couldn't have done this without your support.
Now I have the chance to change my life even more and to give back as well. Thank God for this blessing! I am forever in his name :)

Just some fun lyrical pieces I wrote

"You shot me down and I can't can't ignore it; if I didn't find love, I'd have to adore it...I wasn't enough but now I'm all for it, you brought me back and I can't can't ignore it...ignore it...I I can't ignore it...ignore it...I I can't can't ignore it...I had nothing before now" -Before Now

"Purple skies, cotton sways, these words come out like a play and I'm ready...I'm ready to let you stay so I won't ever cry again cause these drops of red won't be able to leave an imprint" -Red

"I didn't feel that moment until I bought your CD and then in the next room you were f******* my bestie...Like gloves, I'm about to pop you off; neglect the right to an advertisement; cause I'm dangerous like the boys on your screen; I'm raw baby and you can't handle me" -Raw

"I stamped my dreams on paper and wished my youth away. The nights got sicker and my heart was pressed for space and I w…

Won't know for sure until later

But I feel it in my heart that I got the job. I haven't been told what my shift would be but my earnings are slightly above minimum wage (which is fine by me) and my team would be one of the best teams out of the entire store.

I'd be working with some very good people and doing a lot of great work as well. Home Lines is a good place for me to start and I hope or should I say; I can't wait to get started!

Things are looking up for me. I've found success in a great relationship; a job opportunity; now all that's missing is a little education again. I'll get to that again soon though :)

I'm so blessed. Thank you God for everything!

My dream guy

I like my men like I like my coffee, dark and sweet. This is Lucas Malvacini; I'm assuming he's Italian but I may be wrong; all I know is he is very sexy and exactly the kind of guy that I am super attracted to. I love a little scruff ;)

Those eyes are so seductive too. Seduce me baby <3

Pretty Wreck-less

Used to be the girl in glasses
Used to be the boy in trash bags Wishing away for something new It all came back to you
I'm pretty wreck-less I'm danger and stability in control I've got your love in my pocket And I won't let go They say time can only break If you don't say, what it is you need I'm in need of your grace I've always wanted the change
Used to write my heart out on fumes Closed my eyes to forget you It's not worth it to be immune  To the advocate of hurt that's used The nights always brought me back to you
I'm pretty wreck-less I'm danger and stability in control I've got your love in my pocket And I won't let go They say time can only break If you don't say, what it is you need I'm in need of your grace I've always wanted the change
Take a little sugar with that pain Numb out the activity that was in vain Poke a few holes where they don't belong See if your colors flow like snow They call her Tina and sh…

Sexy Euro Kid

Contrary to me having a boyfriend now; I have to vent just a little bit about a certain little hottie who stole the storm last night with Tyler. Tyler is cute too though :) so many cute people and I never knew they existed around here. I'm truly blessed though; I've found a guy that really likes me for me; no makeup needed, no boundaries inflamed, and no hurt or regret so far. We've only be dating for a week or so but it's already onto a nice start and I'm happier than I have been in a very long time.

Now, onto this European hottness. He had the most gorgeous face I've seen on anyone, great smile, and such a lovely attitude. I mean, he had class, wit, charm, humor, and kindness all rolled into one. Not shockingly; he was a cool kid who came from Hawaii and came from a rich family. Rich kids are actually pretty awesome after all. Not all of them are major douche bags :)

My boyfriend already knows that if I had been single; I would of snatched him up ;) I still h…

Job Interview, says YAY! :)

Today started out pretty amazingly. I'm super blessed. I woke up around noon and the first thing to happen for me was a phone call from Walmart asking me to come in for an interview. They told me to be there by 4pm and so I got a shower, shaved, and picked out my Sunday best. I was so nervous but it was such a relief when they told me that they wanted me to come in for a second interview tomorrow morning at 9:30!

First off, I'm amazed that they considered a second interview; it's not an easy task to get that far but I'm happy to be lucky enough to get that far. I'm still a little nervous because well, anything can happen but this is it you guys! I finally found a place that is accepting of me so far. The employees are super nice and fun people and the department I would be working in is one of the great spots in the store.

According to Michelle, a zone supervisor who interviewed me today; I'd be working in the Home Living region of the store. Stocking, cleanin…

Dear Illuminati

I used to love Madonna's music and now you've taken it and made it into something that I can't even feel or relate to. Unfair. I feel bad for the day that you will have to answer for all of your sin. You could be doing so much good with all this 'power' that you have and yet your destroying humanity. It's not right. It's cruel and cynical.

Leave Madonna alone please. Why take everything great in our music and movies and create something evil from it? Be original about it at least and stop shoving your beliefs and Egyptian cultural dances and imagery down our throats. I was given a right in 1776 to believe whom I want to and I believe in God. The one and only God that I will ever put my faith and belief into.

Contrary to everyone out there. I'm not falling for your symbolic mind warp. Sorry, I believe in only one God and he won't kill off random musicians because they don't agree with his agenda. So you can take your imagery and control and leave…

2-23-2011: Transchild

Seems like we're out of time, young hearts lost within the sky
System of space and mind, warm words you will find

Child of two names, you were made to be happy
Face so tough and soft, you were made to have never lost
You should never have to pay the cost

You fought so extravagantly, young hearts with lock and key
Somewhere beyond the long goodbyes
Warm words you will find

A couple old short writings I had laying around...never posted these before

Writing 1: Girl

An eye looking for love but what shows is never enough
The girl in white makes a beautiful lie
Whispering to her friends, this is what I've wanted
but fair to be that she will never see past the sun
Love doesn't form from ink and paper
but lights beyond the green surely to take her
Fancy so young but hard as a shell
Like gaskets for old guns; her weakness can tell

Writing 2: Worth

In pictures, it shows, it glows
Dynamic, always changing, can't complain
The wind will carry what hurts us away
and like a child, there are secrets
Can't you stop deceiving; is it worth while?
Out the corner of our eyes, forewarned and forearmed
A place never known but surely seen
Delighted by the devil; surely to make you die
Say a prayer for the others; never left them in despair

All about a Leo

Take a look and then decide for yourself if you (as a Leo) or your partner (if they're a Leo) fits this article :)