I have to say it because it's what you don't want to hear
weren't left for no reason; you were left because you cause everyone
around you strife Matty. No one wants to deal with it. You treat people like
they're worthless in your little masterpiece of a manipulation and then
you expect the world to give you a break? You can't get by in life on
hellos and goodbyes.
It's time for you to grow up and realize that
you DON'T have to repeat the pattern of your mother; that you can be a more mature and real person than you were
before and one that is respected; not felt sorry for because feeling
sorry will never fix your problems. It will only feed them even more
and make your weakness stronger. Repeating the same pattern
won't change you; it only shows how low you've dropped over the years
and how pathetic your behavior is seen in the eyes of those on the
outside of you.
Stealing someone's boyfriend from them isn't right either and it comes back on you; everything bad that you do. Do you want to lose everything you have in an instant because someone runs game on what you have? NO. You've judged me for years; put me down; lied to me; manipulated your way into getting what you wanted out of me and you've pulled the same maneuvers that you've done on a lot of your enemies on me; someone you claimed to care about and have respect for. I seen that not long ago; I have to stand up for myself to prove to you that I won't be walked over and that I'm not one of those people who will feel sorry for you because I know that you have to help yourself before someone else can help you.
I know that you had a few rough patches in life but you need to realize that you're not the only one who has had hell in their life. Everyone deals with some form of adversity at some point; so you're nothing new to that. You're closer to 30 now and you need to look outside of the drugs; the promiscuity; and the trash talk and see the person you were supposed to be. This isn't you and it shouldn't have been to begin with. Everyone has a choice to make in life. Feel horrible forever or get up and make your life better yourself; it's time you take that charge and go for the positives in life; negativity is what brought you down to the point you are at now and no one wants to hang around negative people.
Grow up and then maybe people will stay. If not; you won't ever truly find happiness until you know that life doesn't revolve around you. You revolve around life.
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I know we've reconnected recently and I feel thankful for all you've done; this past week was rough and you've managed to give me a major blessing I've needed for quite some time.
I'm writing you this morning with a wounded heart. I need your guidance and your peace within because I can't take this overwhelming pain that is trying to dismantle all I've worked hard to build through you.
It's sad to wake up and no longer see those sweet messages of love from someone you care about. I've spent my whole life searching for truth and the devil has taken me down numerous times with hatred blinded by the guise of love on a manipulative deception that I could never understand nor get over.
God, I need your healing because I'm still bitter and sad within. I don't know how to get through this without you. Man has always burnt me; no matter how much I tried to show that I care about people; it always ended in me alone and crying.
You're the equivalent to a sociopath filled with hate
You do things in the wrong way, play victim to my face
I'm burning bridges that never started cause I knew you'd play
Expecting everyone to fall to your words, so you can hide who you are
Act like I don't know but I knew all along
Hiding behind 30 years of shame but we knew that you weren't strong
No regrets on what was said, should of said it all along
Still they try so hard
Knock you down and it hurts
But my light still burns
You will never learn
Go ahead and manipulate
It's all you know anyway
I saw the messages written on the screen
Nothing taking it back but my anger still lingering
There's nothing you can do to dispute it
But you'd still choose it
Pray to God, need some guidance, cause I feel insane
Like I lost myself and I'll never be the same
Had me going against myself and my friends
You are the enemy