Dutch independence (the original post for "Netherlands")
I never knew that the Dutch anthem was indeed the oldest anthem of the world. It was written over 436 years ago in 1574 but wasn't adopted until 1932.
This fascinates me. I also didn't know that the Dutch sought out independence from the Spanish. The song itself is rather remarkable because of it's first person persona and the peaceful ensemble.
I think about our anthem and what it means to me and then when I think of this one; I'm amazed at how long it has been around. I wonder how people in 1574 spoke. Perhaps they were like Edgar Allan Poe or even like Leonardo Da Vinci.
Regardless, It's an anthem that has a nice historical background. Het Wilhelmus translates to "The William" and the song was written as if William of Orange were singing it to the Spanish in the Dutch Revolt.
One other fascinating tidbit is the fact that the Japanese anthem has the oldest lyrics. The Japanese anthem was written in the 9th century. Truly amazing how long songs can last. Decades beyond their expiration (which is bound not to happen of course).
Now I feel like reading some history books. Does that make me geeky?
On a side note; I get my guitar on Wednesday (or so Paypal is stating) and I can't wait to fool around with it to see if I even have any natural strumming skills. Hopefully I do.
I was in Walmart earlier today and saw a guy whom resembled my ex (now friend) and it was rather odd. He really looked similar to him but it was as if it was him in some other person's body. I don't know how to explain it but it was interesting at least and made for a positive evening for me. At least in comparison to the rest of the shebang that I've had this week.
I found out today that Switchfoot STILL relaxes me when I'm stressed or upset. I guess Christian rock is just the thing to go with sometimes but if you believe like I do; you already know that it's great for you.
One of my favorites from the Best Of album is their song "Learning to Breathe" because I feel (in a sense) that I'm learning to breathe and that I'm no longer relying on myself per say but on the man upstairs; God.
I have to say though that I slipped today for a moment, I got fed up with my step brother and it was rather tragic to feel so angry but I was letting out some of that feeling for once. I may have cussed like a sailor but I at least retracted myself after some time and calmed myself enough to know that it's not worth it.
I shouldn't feel sorry or bad for someone who treats me as an underdog and clearly doesn't understand the hell I've been through in my life so far and I don't accept his hate of gay people either. I know I have mommy issues because in 1st grade; I broke out in tears in the middle of math class. It's was odd but I couldn't help it.
When I was little I used to be scared of the dark and want my dad to assure me that I was safe because I needed that mother figure to tuck me in at night; I just didn't have it for awhile.
I used to cry and throw a fit when my dad would leave for work. It wasn't easy being motherless. I craved her existence. I needed her around more than anyone.
My sister was like my mother for years. She did her best to be three things: Mother, Sister, and Friend. All of which she ended up mastering really well. Which makes her the best darn mom her kids will ever have.
Speaking of which, I heard the other day from my dad that Kyzer handed Steff an unused diaper and told her that the baby stinked. I can't remember what he called the baby but I think it's "bubba" or something. Regardless, I thought that was the cutest thing I have heard lately.
I really miss my family a lot and I would love to go visit them soon. Hopefully me and my dad will in the next month or so. I believe June is the month that we're planning to take the trip to see them. I'll finally get to see how big Kyzer has gotten. Malick too :)
Well, it's time for bed and perhaps a movie. Speaking of which (before I get off of here) I finally saw the Jim Carrey film; "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" the other day. I loved it. It was quirky and indie like and weird all in the same note that it was beautiful and poetic.
I really love movies that show the realism of relationships and love. All these "sappy romances" get on my nerves because none of it depicts what real life is actually like. It's not always kisses and hugs at the end of the walk. Sometimes you go different places or you meet other people and so on.
But, I'm going to go now before I start writing about politics or something else that will consume this post. Hope everyone has a fantastic and blessed week/weekend ahead.
PS: Every time you eat a "Zero" bar; think of me because it's one of my favorite candy bars. It's so flipping delicious!
UPDATE: As of December 2017- January 2018, Android and Samsung Pay is confirmed working and can be activated through verification on the Chime card. More info: Click here Setup: Click here
I love my Chime card. I really do, but there are some things that need to happen in order for me to love it even more.
If you are a customer and you've been wondering if Chime supports Android Pay or Apple Pay.
They currently don't, BUT according to their support team; they will be offering support for mobile payments like Android and Apple Pay in the near future. Along with new features such as Peer to Peer Transfers and Photo Direct Deposit Uploads.
There isn't a set date, however; it could be this year or even next year before we know anything or get a notification in our inboxes. Keep a watch out everyone!
I know we've reconnected recently and I feel thankful for all you've done; this past week was rough and you've managed to give me a major blessing I've needed for quite some time.
I'm writing you this morning with a wounded heart. I need your guidance and your peace within because I can't take this overwhelming pain that is trying to dismantle all I've worked hard to build through you.
It's sad to wake up and no longer see those sweet messages of love from someone you care about. I've spent my whole life searching for truth and the devil has taken me down numerous times with hatred blinded by the guise of love on a manipulative deception that I could never understand nor get over.
God, I need your healing because I'm still bitter and sad within. I don't know how to get through this without you. Man has always burnt me; no matter how much I tried to show that I care about people; it always ended in me alone and crying.
You're the equivalent to a sociopath filled with hate
You do things in the wrong way, play victim to my face
I'm burning bridges that never started cause I knew you'd play
Expecting everyone to fall to your words, so you can hide who you are
Act like I don't know but I knew all along
Hiding behind 30 years of shame but we knew that you weren't strong
No regrets on what was said, should of said it all along
Still they try so hard
Knock you down and it hurts
But my light still burns
You will never learn
Go ahead and manipulate
It's all you know anyway
I saw the messages written on the screen
Nothing taking it back but my anger still lingering
There's nothing you can do to dispute it
But you'd still choose it
Pray to God, need some guidance, cause I feel insane
Like I lost myself and I'll never be the same
Had me going against myself and my friends
You are the enemy