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Sleepless nights

His name is Brandon. He is 22 years old and realizes that life is not a box of chocolate. He loves music and having the spotlight. All eyes on him; all the time.

He isn't afraid to truly speak his mind even if it means losing someone or hurting them because he cares about his ambitions; not seeking to fulfill someone else's dreams. He won't take no for an answer.

He is a great person with a heart that only so few shall ever access again. Only those who know it will understand the entire picture. The complete journey of the person that stands in front of them.




Sign of the times

The time has come to part. The time has come to rebuild the heart. With what I've heard; I already know. It's time for me to let this go. Can't be like before; that's not what I want anymore.  Can't fix your problems; if I'm the open door.
Ciao dear.

The new Google Bar

I'm super excited about this :) finally, Google is really taking an initiative for a simple and beautiful design. Great job Google team!
Official Google Blog: The next stage in our redesign

Can't hold us down

As Christina Aguilera once said, "Nobody can hold us down" and with full force ahead, I will follow on that belief because I know who I am and what I'm worthy of.

Genuinely

I'm thinking of getting tits someday...I think they would be fun and if I changed my mind, I can reverse the whole process...if I got tits...would you play with em? ;)

Double the fun

Never had a guy get me off twice but last night was amazingly hot...he knew how to really slam it and the positions were great...I was so loud I woke up a couple next door to our room...ahh, it's nice to know I still got it ;) and the guys are lining up to try and get a taste of me...can't fuck with me, I will keep you coming back for more...hahaha

SDSTW

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When your boyfriend is cranky

Girl

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Someone told me I had very feminine legs recently. As my first 'leg' picture; I give this proof to you...

Today is one of those days

I look around and see some people who are unhappy and think; what the fuck happened to you for you to get so unhappy about things?

Sometimes, you can get relationships with people that look amazingly cute and sexy...all I ever get or got really were the hand-me-downs of your type...I got the types that didn't care or didn't want to stay around and yet you have the ones that will stay around for awhile at least and make you feel like a princess. Where is my knight? Why is he taking so fucking long to show up?

I can admit that I'm a jealous person. I want things that some people have because I know secretly I could never get them. I get the treatment of the third wheel a lot too. Ask any Leo, we have those moments where it happens. Where we feel like a third wheel and like we're out of the loop in a lot of ways. It's because we crave attention. We crave the spotlight. We need it for our mental survival.

Here is what I want and what I've been trying to get for year…

Oh poor little virgo

You can try to outshine me but we all know that a flame is higher than a bird. I also have the advantage of luring in whomever I want with the siren in me. You can try to imitate my charms and looks, but you can never be me.

I'm not desperate for your call either; because Leo's are independent creatures. We're stable in our own environments and never have a need for yours. Sure we crave attention but only because we know that we have the power in us to use it towards our outwardly deeds.

So keep playing the copy cat and trying to plot my flames; but the fire inside me will keep burning when you can't fly. Leo's are stronger dear Virgo.

;)

Pussyboy

Just won't do.

Since when does this happen?

I checked my email sent folder today and saw countless replies to sex ads on craigslist (straight ones at that) with my home phone number included....

Looks like the step brother can't be trusted and he's using my email for this stuff? If anything; at least make your own or something...I don't care that your doing it but why are you using MY email address; invasion of privacy and you didn't even ask permission to use it.

Better change the password now......oi vey!

Fun times

It's great to be in good company with my homie Matty :)<3 ya boo!

An album all about me

All from Kelly Clarkson's latest. A friend recommended it today; sounds good and I love how much she's developed since her A.I. days. Lyrics are right on notch too. Great job Kelly!

Songs that speak to me from the new album Stronger would be:

1. Honestly
2. Standing In Front Of You
3. I Forgive You
4. Let Me Down
5. You Can't Win
6. Breaking Your Own Heart
7. Don't Be A Girl About It
8. The Sun Will Rise

A lot of deep connection mostly with Honestly and The Sun Will Rise. Another song not related to this post that I find beautiful is Someone Like You and Rolling In The Deep by Adele.

And so I cave in

I've been holding back from writing something deep or personal about a guy I still love; even though he hates me now. I've been a child, a coward, and I most likely deserve what I'm getting. It hurts.

I feel dead now. I'm dying inside. It kills me to see me and this guy fight over what? Why are we still fighting? What was my issue that made me go and fuck up someone who was beyond amazing and beyond sweet to me. I can't even begin to know how one would repair the damage of this but I dream of it all the time.

Today marks the first time I've ever cried from an email in ages. I don't like crying but I guess mother nature is trying to push me. I'm going to name names and just say...

Regardless of what I've done to insult, break, and deceive you...I don't regret us and I don't regret what I feel...

I can't explain it but love isn't dead, it's just changed and I know that and I accept...I can't begin to imagine the hell you have e…

If Jenny can do it; so can I

I'm doing something I haven't ever done on my blog. I'm posting my phone number for all the world to harass.

Crazy as it seems; I'm curious to see what kind of calls I receive or who will call me or if I will even get any phone calls; since we live in an era of text messaging and non-social networking.

910.377.1334
PS: It's a cell phone (at least now it is) so don't get upset if it goes to voice mail; I'll try to answer every call I can though!

<3

Lost

For years I felt confident in my voice that I could sing just about anything. These days I've lost my voice so much that I can't even sing some of my favorites like I could before; it doesn't help that when I got sick; my voice was damaged along with it. So, there goes my dream career.

You know, it's funny, we spend our entire lives wishing and hoping for this array of miracles to happen for us and when they don't happen; we're disappointed. We get caught up in our worry and our drive to live in a world where work is vital and play is a back burner.

I've lost that voice. I've lost that dream. What does one do when they realize they don't have the ability anymore? How did Shania Twain get her voice back and how would I get mine back? Is it a yearly thing or something that happens over the course of a couple months?

I tried practicing vocals a lot more lately but it seems I have to scream almost just to get to the notes I want to reach and my vocals are …

A clean house

makes for a clean heart; so I was once told at least. It's only now that looking back on that small little quote that I can understand it. Every time I clean the house, I look around and think to myself how great it is that my house looks like a beautiful home again. It brings me comfort and joy and always helps lift me up after a bad day and if not; Swedish fish and romantic comedies help unless it deals with love; then it's comedies without the romanticism.

Tomorrow marks the first day that Brenda, Dylan, and the latest addition to our clan; Tommy will be home. It's been nearly 5 months since we actually were together in person. Now I know the horror that military families feel and I give them my gratitude in being able to deal with it. Especially when you love someone. Much like my past; I've had a great many of situations like that. Wondering if they're okay, hoping they'll make it back, and so on.

I'm excited for tomorrow. No more lonely thinking or di…

Opera

is so beautiful :)

Pretty woman

Sometimes I feel like I'm Julia Roberts. Struggling with life and then something good happens. The only difference is; I'm not a prostitute and I'm not escorting for a rich guy and having to wear elegant clothes that cost more than my dream home.

Still I dream of having a life like Julia's in this movie. Meeting someone, being swept off my feet by kindness and a swift charming stare. The only problem as to why I could never fit into the lifestyle is because one; I don't eat snails or other things that crawl and I'm too outspoken for most of those type of people.

I've met a few wonderful people though that would classify as what people would normally say are the rich and snobby. Not all of them are bad and many of them do have a heart. Some are just a little bit less understanding of my kind simply because they haven't experienced the hardships we have or never had to worry about some of the same things that we have.

Either way, good or bad. Sad or happy…

In the 90s and today

We would talk through blogs, profile pages on MySpace, and the occasional phone call. It never occurred just how much our world has evolved. We've come from profiles and blogs to texting and video chat.

I miss those days back in the 90s. The 90s were a good era. No worries, no heartaches, childhood was filled with excitement that at the end of the school season we had 3 months of freedom ahead of us to have fun and explore our growing up process.

When I was a kid, I remember falling in love with all the boy bands that came out. Staying up until 11pm to watch MTV award shows, and scary movies with my sister. I remember when I was sick and I stayed home; my sister would sometimes stay out to tend to me like mother would. She was my sister but also my best friend. Something that as we got older; we lose.

I remember the old place. It was two stories and a nice apartment at least. All of my friends were in the neighborhood so I could always find someone to talk to when I needed to. I s…

Virgin Mobile fail

Again and again I continue to deal with failures to resolve issues, rude representatives, and the occasional India guy hitting on me when I call to try and get this problem resolved.

I hate that I've had to do this so much but it's always come down to it. I'm the customer and I am always right; remember?

So I've been having issues with my Android phone lately and I am under warranty. I've tried and tried to get a replacement because I qualify and I even went online and read up on the terms for it (very tiring process I might add) and it clearly states that I am covered for phone damages that are not self inflicted.

Each time that I've called, they tried to contact corporate because they were unable to activate my number to get the replacement process taken care of. It's been about a week or so since I filed a ticket for this issue and STILL corporate is failing to contact me or review the issue.

I get that they are busy and have thousands of customers to te…

My current addiction

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Mmm yummy!

Roseanne said it best

"People can change, that's why you can't give up on them."

A change would do you good

The whole occupy movement is getting crazy. In Oakland, CA a retired veteran was shot with one of the rubber bullets that officials were using to try and break down the crowd. These people were peacefully protesting and now the police have started to throw explosive devices near them, tear gas, and shoot rubber bullets at them.
The guy that served in the military who arrived home from Iraq injured is said to be in critical condition tonight and suffering from a skull fracture and swelling of the brain. Is this really worth all of the protesting that we've been doing in my country? I thought police officers were supposed to protect us; not harm us.
It's sad that we live in such a mean and cruel world like this. It isn't our world though; it's the people. In this era of instant and promises being vaguely seen; we're losing humanity and our morals that helped keep us sane for so long.
I look at videos of this hellish behavior that is happening and it makes me cry becau…

To the next guy that "falls" in love with me

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Cleaning house

Is never fun but someone's got to do it. My step mom is finally coming home this weekend and I couldn't be more excited to have family back. It gets lonely sometimes just jamming to a song alone or writing thoughts down but having no one to listen to them.

Considering I only have 3 days to get the house in tip top shape; I've got to put a move on it. So much to do around here. Kitchen will be the roughest part considering I have not just the inner layer of the kitchen but the fridge, microwave, and cabinets need there monthly cleaning too.

The good thing about all of this is I will have a nice looking house in time for my step mom's arrival and we have a new member moving in with us. Her oldest son; Tommy is moving in with us for awhile. I have to say I'm a little nervous but unlike Dylan; he's not a phobic asshole. Meanwhile; as I'm typing this..."What is love" is playing on the radio...can we say awkward?

Ah, yes. It's beginning to look a…

Sip a coffee, close your eyes, and listen to some Sheryl Crow

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Some of you out there feel this way

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Meanwhile

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Feeling like a kid the other day; I basked in the ambiance of Cracker Jacks :)

Those were the days eh?

I did it

Fixed my phone all by myself. All it took was some Googling and a bit of courage and I was back.Android is wonderful enough to have a recovery partition on every phone so by taking advantage of that, I was lucky enough to find a tutorial that explained how to access it even if your boot screen was froze like mine was. With a couple button presses; boom, it's like new :) yayyy!

The world will end soon

Because I'm out of candy corn. Prepare yourselves.

Sometimes, it's all in the groove

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Too late (song)

You say, I'm not nice
I'm not good, at all
You copy and paste my imperfections to your thought
Only memories clear these vintage walls

You lied and lied to get past
You had a heart but it didn't come back
Now you go on empty, from what I've done
It's like a gun, can't love someone

Is it really, a puzzle who is to blame?
Both of us, both of us
There is no one sided story
Just another fate to crush
Just another name to erase

Go ahead and be like that
You and I know it's too bad
Go ahead and write your hate
You and I know it's just too late

I probably wouldn't care if I could
I probably won't ever see myself understood
I could reason and let be all I can
Thoughts from you just don't understand, understand

What kind of love was it before? Now that it's silent you push against me like a war
Did I deserve this, or was it just part of the plan, or are you more a man than I am?


Go ahead and be like that
You and I know it's too bad
Go ahead a…

Postcards and road signs

I call to the wind, come take my pain
Small lights trickle through my veins
Close my eyes and go back to the beginning
Where the road is wide and I'm still running
Where the child in me doesn't scream
Like stills from a movie scene
Young enough but strong beyond
These failures won't remain calm

Swaying in through my head
White lies claim my debt
Portraits up in the skies
Sorrow will be saying goodbye
I'm not dead, I'm not dead, just yet
I'm not dead, I'm not dead, just yet


It swallows you whole, all your wayward loves 
Can't you let go, can't help I'm not only one
Felt the bullet pressing into my hands
Like I did something that couldn't be forgave
This heartbeat faded long ago
Now I'm missing what I was sold


Swaying in through my head
White lies claim my debt
Portraits up in the skies
Sorrow will be saying goodbye
I'm not dead, I'm not dead, just yet
I'm not dead, I'm not dead, just yet


Spirit in the wind, come take my pain, so …

Sick

With a cold and it seems it just doesn't want to go away. I recently found out that colds are most commonly caused by three factors.
1. Air conditioning 2. Air quality changes 3. Temperature changes
All three of these factors are common sense to most of us but we tend to forget the truth behind what causes this issue for so many. It never fails, every winter; spring; and fall. I get sick with a sinus infection. It's not because I'm unhealthy because believe me; I'm in better health than some people my age but it's a lot to do with those three painful factors of life at which I posted above.
Honestly, I wish sickness didn't exist but if it's didn't...a lot of doctors and surgeons would be broke...so I guess we just have to accept that it's part of this endless journey we're taking in life.
Here's to getting well soon!

The history of Halloween

The 60s, Janis, and a life unknown

Such controversial times back in those days. Even in the way that drugs were such a massive thing for people; that has sadly only increased over time.
No, the beauty of the 60s wasn't the free movement or the drugs, or even the sex. It was all about the music. Some great music came out of the 60s. I remember small bits of the Beatles and Nancy Sinatra.
Why is it though that so many who become inspired by this era feel so much need to take drugs, abusing themselves when they have the best gift in the world. They have talent.
The 60s marked important times in our history because it was when several movements began, when the war was closer, and when having a baby was common (though not as common as today)
Fashion was a thing that resembled the bohemian era and music tended to rely on those creations. Janis Joplin was most likely influenced most by the 60s. She wore clothes in that style and say with a jazzy brass that only the heartbroken can truly resonate to. She had the spark of som…

Well this would be a bitch

Sometimes, good phones are just not so good. Back in September I purchased the LG Optimus V as my prime choice for my first smartphone/touchscreen and it seems it's lead me to a string of bad luck.

Today, after installing Angry Birds Seasons and transferring a couple apps to my SD card; my phone decided to become evil and start acting up. I decided to reboot the phone and now it's stuck on the Android logo. To restart the phone; you have to pull the battery out and of all these attempts to fix it; I've deemed it unsuccessful.

I called Virgin Mobile support in hopes that they would know what to do. The guy I got was nice and tried his best but it ended up in contacting headquarters which will take me a grand total of about 1-2 weeks before I will receive a response given the high call volume. I'm still under warranty so hopefully I will be able to get a replacement phone but if I can't, I will have to bid farewell to the smartphone world and either recycle the damn…

Home coming

It's been 4 months since my step mother left to visit family and because we are the 1% - She still hasn't had her money come in to get home.
Luckily October is going to be a good month for her because Columbia Southern University sent out one check earlier this week but it was only for a portion of the total amount she's supposed to be getting back.
Tickets went up so it may be possible that she won't be home until November. One can only hope that a miracle will happen for her and the boys.
Tommy; her other son will be living with us soon. I have to say I'm a little nervous given this will be the first time I've ever met him but sources say he's a great guy, so I'll just have to keep that in mind.
It's crazy thinking about what is just around the corner. The 1 year anniversary of my grandpa's passing. I still think about him from time to time, I smile sometimes because I know he's so much better off now that we are. At least he's not dirt…

Blog changes

Soon, I will be taking some measures to change my blog to fit a more casual reader approach. Widgets and the like may no longer be available after this point in order to provide a faster experience and improve the usability of my blog.

I've neglected updating it for some time now but given the new year and the change in the season; it's time to update my blog with a look that suits it better.

Simplistic is easier to read and therefore; my goal is providing this simplistic experience on my blog so that you can enjoy reading my posts instead of waiting forever for the page to load.

Cheers to a new beginning! :)

Child inside

I

I wish the world was flat, so I could come right back, to what I knew so well

You

You wish their was just one language, so everyone could know, so everyone wouldn't be in anguish

Run to the woods
They'll see you there
Hiding out for something unfair
Always wondering if anything will come through
Run to the woods
A place they've kept for you

Child declined, lost your mind
Child declined, wasted your time

Mmhmm

I

I changed my mind when I was a boy, a boy conflicted by the name

You

You kissed the hands of the earth, so no one would get hurt, still it got worse

Run to the woods
They'll see you there
Hiding out for something unfair
Always wondering if anything will come through
Run to the woods
A place they've kept for you

Child declined, can't realize
Child declined, can't touch the sky

We

We take back all our letters, so we can rewrite ourselves

and I

I could never remember, the ghost I didn't find, inside

Like a vulture you tear apart at the wound, in …

Generation lost

So many times I see kids these days dress in some of the most repulsive rubbish you can imagine. Showing your crotch and your bulge in public is vile and degrading. Leave it for a bedroom or hotel room for that matter.

It's sad these days, kids truly have no respect for themselves; their partners; or their parents. I remember times when keeping your body covered up was still considered classy and elegant of you and you were seen as a respectable person for those gestures. Today we turn on the radio to crappy music that exposes our children to sex, drugs, illegal crime, and so much that they shouldn't be exposed to.

If I ever have kids; I don't want them to live in a world where they don't know what class is. Morals are important because without them; you're no longer in control of yourself and when this happens, you've gone off the deep end...and not for the good either

Some might disagree with me and I can accept that but hear me out; we shouldn't glor…

One song to describe what I'm feeling as of lately

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Blog is finally pubic again

It was time to break down the walls and expose my inner thoughts. So keep a look out because I'm coming back.

There goes mister "I love you", again

Like a bag of garbage; another one is out for the taking. I guess it's true, sometimes you just can't get what you really want. For so long I thought that if I was honest and forward about things; I would reap the benefit of getting something that could last or something that would at least mean something enough to pull through small changes. Apparently; this one wasn't so right for me.

Beyond the usual lines of bullshit that guys give me after they meet me, this one was a bit different but still relatively usual. It's not everyday that I run into an Australian who decides in the end to dump me because he feels offended. I'm a self learner; I learn on my own but if YOU don't tell me what is translated as offensive to you; I'm not able to feel sorry for you. Your fault; not mine. I'm just doing the job that is; being your personal hand-me-down.

I'm not writing this post to ridicule myself or any guy for that matter because let's face it; that wou…

Jaxtr

I tried it once and I tried it again. It's nothing more than false advertisement and a marketing scheme to get you to pay for bullshit rates that are much cheaper with Google Voice than any other route you could take.
It's unfair that when your advertising free international calls using a service called "FreeConnect", you neglect to tell the customer that your required to have an upgraded account in order to use it. I think it's ridiculous because I'm on the hunt for free international calling so I can talk to some of my international friends and the whole time; you advertising some bullshit that isn't even true or worth while.
FUCK you Jaxtr. You've lost my interest. If you use Jaxtr; I highly recommend finding someone else; you're getting fucked over.

My favorite song and live performance of "It's No Good"

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Going Out On My Own (Raw)

Auto tune Demonstration - Vertigo

A demo using Auto tune to symbolize the robotic need to love. Written solely based on action versus experience; it's a trash pop inspired, dumb downed, version of myself. This will not be available for download.

Pandora users

I've recently come back to Pandora and started enjoying it's benefits on my mobile phone. I love it so far (aside from the somewhat slower load up) and the selections are endless.

If you're a fan of 80s music like myself; I recommend a great radio station to add. Simply type in The Human League and create the station. Everything so far that I've heard on this station is great and it's music that I enjoy greatly. For example, right now I'm enjoying some Animotion (Obsession) and earlier I heard the Romantics song; Talking In Your Sleep.

I'd also recommend Grooveshark; though for the mobile app; it will cost you a subscription but on your computer; it's a free service with very minor limited functionality. I love it as well. You can find anything you want and start listening to your favorites right now!

Pandora also has a desktop application for it's subscribers. They're subscription costs $36 a year. Themes and such are also added to the subscrip…

My first Android device

I finally did what I've been saying I was going to do for a few years now. I geared up and worked my ass off to get the great Android phone; the LG Optimus V from Virgin Mobile.

While it doesn't have Flash support; or HotSpot tethering; neither of which I will miss considering I already do most of my video watching and use my Flash programs on my Chromebook. Virgin Mobile has moderately priced this phone at $149.99 and including tax (in my area at least) it will cost a max of just $160.49 (tax is what will kill you around these parts) and it comes with a 2GB SD card pre-installed, boasting a great display and runs fast and smoothly on a dual core processor.

It will take me a few days to write a review here but when I get the phone; I'll be sure to post all about it and hint what it's like. I've looked online and it's possible to root and add a custom ROM to the phone with a few programs and a few command prompts. So far, people have been using Cyagenmod 7.1 an…

Chrome sounds

It's rather amazing the things that you can do with Chrome OS and Chrome browser but little did some know; Google created a jokingly awesome extension which will give your browser or Chrome OS new life and truly opens up the potential to do some amazing things through sound.

It uses the HTML5 audio tag and samples from www.freesoundproject.org to bring in the joys of browsing on a Chrome OS device or any device using the Chrome browser.

Though it was only meant to be an April Fool's joke last year; it was a brilliant joke that could actually turn into an amazing user experience for people who are new to the Chrome OS experience and for some of us who appreciate sounds.

I've submitted feedback about this and I encourage all of you who use Chrome OS or the Chrome browser to do the same. We need to add some spice to this OS and I think sounds would be a perfect addition.

If you want to try it out right now; visit this link and install it. You will be glad you did!

Job hunting: Day 3

Today I took the assessment test for Nexxlinx (I'll have to edit the other posts later to match their way of spelling it) and I scored rather well. I scored at 51 WPM!

The assessment was LONG. It took me 3 hours and 48 minutes to complete it. I got an application afterwards from the front desk and the girl at the front desk said that they don't have any classes for the Time Warner Cable position until next month but that they will call me for an interview when classes become available. At least the good thing is; I've got watch it takes for it because you had to scored about 25 WPM for the typing part of it and the rest of it; I'm pretty confident that I did well enough on those too.

It ended up becoming a rather great day for me today. I had a good time meeting a very kind lady sitting beside me in the computer lab where we were all doing our tests. She was very helpful and the kind of lady that you would want to talk to about your kids and your soccer games. It's…

Go mobile: 3G sites for everyone

Below is a list of all the Google Mobile sites I have found. You can copy and paste these URL's into your bookmark manager and save them for later use when you need them while using 3G data.

Please note that this list may get updated from time to time to include the right links. If one isn't working for you; leave me a comment on this post and I'll try to find one that works.

Here is the full list I have so far:

Google Buzz
Gmail
Google Reader
Google+
Google News
Google Docs
iGoogle
Google (Search)
Google Talk
Picasa
Google Translate
Google Places (Also known as Google Maps)
Google Groups
Google Books
Google Voice
Google Calendar

If you know of more Google mobile sites or any others that will work on the Chrome browser on Chrome OS and other operating systems. Leave them in the comments below.

Here are some extra mobile sites you can use vs. the full desktop versions:

Twitter
Facebook
MySpace
Netflix
Dictionary.com
eBay
eBuddy Messenger
Paypal
UPS
USPS
FedEx
Amazon
The Weather Channel
Weather Undergrou…

Beat the pot of resolve

So today wasn't the greatest day I've had in awhile but at least I've got Velveeta to comfort my tummy. Believe it or not; I haven't ate anything since around Sunday evening. I know, starving isn't a good thing but given our tough situation; it's what you do at times until the good stuff comes around again. I may not like the cooking part lately because I'm pretty tired but at least I've got something to keep me tender.

I'm getting a lot of really good feedback on my cover of "Fix You" and I'm quite happy about it. I was trying not to cry during the recording of it because when I cry; my vocals go to shit. I can't help but cry every time I hear the song's lyrics though. I relate to it in every way and I've been through a lot of what the song implies. It's a song that has been dear to my heart for a very long time and I felt I wanted to cover it because I wanted people to hear my voice in its serious state. I think now t…

Job hunting: Day 2

So today marks my second attempt to apply for jobs. Later this week I will try for NexxLinx which is hiring for inbound calls through Time Warner Cable (dealing with disconnections and lowering bills) and it requires a 1-hr self assessment, then an interview, and then hopefully you either get the job or you don't.

I applied at Peebles (clothing store) and at Monster's Pizza today. They always look at me funny like I'm doing something wrong; either way. I tried to get an application from Big Lots and the girl that told me they would have one printed out for me today lied. There were none and I was told to try back in October because they would most likely be hiring for the season then. I really don't want to wait that long but I guess you take what you get.

I called McDonald's at the girl "Jen" was a major bitch to me and said that "Well, she checks them all throughout the week and she'll call you if she's interested". So much for kind pe…

Fix You (Coldplay Cover)

DOWNLOAD it here.

Job hunting: Day 1

So today I started job hunting and put in one application at Rite Aid while several others were either out of applications or weren't hiring.

I visited almost every single store I could get to in walking distance and they were either closing up for the day; out of applications and not hiring; or just out of applications. I won't give up though.

McDonald's hasn't contacted me yet but I will be calling tomorrow morning to speak to the manager about my application process. I'm hoping for some good news.

Monster's Pizza is currently only hiring for drivers but the manager told me to stop by tomorrow and he would hopefully have some applications printed out for me so I can still apply anyway. NexLinx was closed but luckily, they are hiring so I will be stopping by tomorrow hopefully on my way to Monster's Pizza.

Big Lots only has applications online, so I'll be applying to that shortly and Dollar General was neither hiring or had any applications.

To top it …

Time Out From The World (Goldfrapp Cover)

I only did it for fun so it's not perfect. Get the original track from Goldfrapp via iTunes or Amazon and show your support for one of the greatest musical talents out there.
DOWNLOAD it here.

Chrome OS now has .zip and .rar support

Though this is great, some are having trouble getting it to work properly; here's a small step-by-step on fixing that issue.

Here's how to enable unzipping of .zip and .rar files in Chrome OS:

(works on the Beta and Developer channel)

1. Hit CTRL+ALT+T
2. From there, type in experimental_storage enable
3. Type exit and then you've got unzip enabled

Keep in mind that this is still a work in progress but nonetheless, it's making it easier for us to unzip .zip and .rar files on Chrome OS. The Archives folder is a read-only folder (not sure why) so it may make things difficult to adjust to at first.

UPDATE: While this feature is now working, two problems occur. Deleting a .zip file or .rar file is not yet possible when trying to do so through the Archives folder, however, deleting them from the File Shelf is possible as with any other file you download. You also cannot currently copy and paste to or from the Archives folder.

New Amsterdam

So I was browsing through show listings on Hulu and found one that struck me with interest. It's called "New Amsterdam" and it portrays a soldier from way back in the day who risked his life for a native american girl whom was being attacked (her tribe was more of) and she saved Amsterdam. Later "New Amsterdam" is New York and a cop and a beautiful girl either fall in love or they work together?

I've got no clue about this show seeing as I just found it but it's a drama show it says so I figured; since I've got a little bit of dutch roots (dated a dutch hottie) I might as well explore it and see what it's all about. It's from FOX too which is surprising considering the name made it seem like it could have been a British show.

If you can watch Hulu in your country (most of which won't be able to without running it through an anonymous proxy of some sort), you can watch all the episodes for free here.

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British shows

So Hulu is home to hundreds if not thousands of shows from all across the globe but today I was introduced to a comedy show straight from the BBC called "Whites" and felt I had to share some thoughts about it.

I really like British humor and I love that a lot of British shows are popping up here in the states. I think more European shows means more insight into learning more about both the cultures of Europe but how we look at ourselves here and how we do things differently but relatively the same for the most part.

British people have always made me laugh and not because of some of the deeper accents but because British humor has such a dry and sarcastic approach that truly brilliant minds tend to understand it better than new comers.

I've been a fan of East Enders since I was in sixth grade. I remember seeing it on public channels like PBS, UNC-TV, and a few other public spots. Though it was more like a soap opera; I still liked it just because of the accents. It wasn&…

A new show on Hulu

Sadly this will only work for U.S. users but hopefully Hulu will stop being anal and give some international love eventually. YouTube still needs to make their entire site international friendly. Just saying.

So a few minutes ago, I stumbled upon a brand new show offered on Hulu called "A Day In The Life" which follows prestigious people all over the world to show you how they live and what they do everyday in their busy lives. The first episode has the respectable Mr. Richard Branson whom owns several businesses and non-profits and is most notably part of the Virgin line of business.

You know, I normally don't follow shows on Hulu unless I really like them but this one seems interesting. I love reality shows that show you how someone lives or how different life is on their side. Plus I love hearing British accents.

Hopefully this video will play but if it doesn't, click on the title (I believe it will show) and you will be taken to the page to play it there. Enjoy!


Nosy family and school meets

Tonight I went to school and had a pretty good time. I met a wonderful teacher named Debbie who was really polite and helpful and she is about to be 40. I told her; 40 is the new 20, so be sure to love it and she does :)

I'm about to make spaghetti for dinner and I've only had a honey bun at school today with a Pepsi. Both costs $1. I remember when honey buns only cost 75 cent or sometimes; 50 cents.
As we came home tonight, the stop light on the other side of our intersection by our house was jammed and stuck on red. My dad was frustrated and decided to turn anyways and I'm glad he did or else we would still be waiting for it to change right now. No worries though; I made it my duty to call the police department about it and they said they'll be sending out a cop soon to check it out. Branni saves the night! Meanwhile, my dad sat in the living room for at least 30 minutes staring out the windows to see if the cop was coming to have a look at the stoplight and he was c…

Recently

I decided to go a little bit mainstream and start using SoundCloud. I've noticed many collaborators, musicians, and producers use SoundCloud and I felt it was time to take aim at it's potential in my life.

If you look to the right of this page; you will see a place for producers to submit music to me. This is a way for me to begin collaborations with those out there that harness the skills at which I don't have right now. So if you know any producers who might have the skills needed to empower my music and bring something unique to the table; visit the link and send it to them.

It doesn't matter where they are. The important factor is getting my voice heard. Will you help me do that? Pretty please with cherries on top??

Fin.

Ditch fit

So it appears EVERYONE that I have tried to make plans with is ditching me or not responding after some time after making plans with me. It's pissing me off.

Why the fuck would you make plans with me and then randomly not show up on EVERY occasion? Are you fucking brain dead?

Either way, I'm sick and tired of it. You can say people don't like to be around me and that's why I'm anti-social now but the truth is; I'm not anti-social by choice. I have to be because if not; I'm going to keep getting burned like this by people and I'm FUCKING tired of it.

Fin.

It makes you feel like sex

So today I walked down the street to grab a bag of goodies from Rite Aid and on my way back; a truck full of really hot guys drove by while the guys were waving to me, whistling at me and calling me sexy.

It was that gesture that made me realize; I still got that spark. I haven't been able to see that for awhile but it was nice to get hit on for once. It hardly ever happens these days, so when it does, I love it.

Now if only it could be a truck full of super cute European guys then I feel like I've won over the world.

PS: If anyone can telepathically get me all of those guys numbers; let me know. Would be fun to play in the field for a bit ;)

Fin.

Every Little Thought: Volume One

It contains explicit content (gay sex) so if you're offended by it; don't read it.

You can get it here.

(Please note it's only available for 30 days and I will send it via e-mail to those who request it)

UPDATE: The download included is now a re-edit of the book. It should be typo free but if it isn't, please report this to me and I will go through the necessary measures to fix it.

Feel my out of tune

The demise of MySpace

So it appears that MySpace has died (literally) tonight. If you're still up at the moment; go check it and see what I mean by this first sentence.

MySpace for years has battled itself and the vast attacks that tonight Tom Anderson on Google+ confirmed. The new owners have high hopes for pushing the site into a pleasant direction but this will take time.

They will have to learn what they need to do to make it a better experience for users and they will have to design the site in such a way to make it more like what users want. Simple but edgy, secure, fast, and effective at doing what the user wants to do.

Cheers to MySpace. We will see it have a comeback someday, and I am certain that when that day comes, all of the years of horror with MySpace will finally be laid to rest and a fresh new start will have arrived.

UPDATE: It appears MySpace is running again and still looking the same as always. It does appear to be running a little bit faster than it did prior to the attack.

Fin.
The recent bug that was found to have opened Google+ via clicking the title of the post; is fixed as well as the issue with comments not working. You can now comment and flawlessly use everything on my blog without an issue.

Thank you to Brian Lewisfor helping me kink out this little bug.

Now, back to posting, yah?

:)

Heart (Lyrics)

Will I ever be, good enough?
Why do people desert me so much?
Does it, does it ever get better than this?

I've tried and cried out just to see your face, your face.
I've missed and gave my last kiss, just to lose, just to lose.
I've been in my hole, can't let go, within.

Exposed heart, where do I start to feel again?
Exposed heart, will I start to heal again?

Cause I've been waiting, I've been waiting too long.
I've been hurting, Oh I've been hurting alone.

Will I ever be, what you want of me?
Does it matter anymore, who I am, who I am?

I've lost and lost so much.
I've been stuck without that touch, that touch.
You know, the one that takes you in.
The one that makes you believe again.

Exposed heart, where do I start to feel again, feel again?
Exposed heart, will I start to heal again?

Cause I've been waiting, I've been waiting too long.
I've been hurting, Oh I've been hurting alone.

Sit in my bed, tears that dread to fall down.
I…

There is a reason for my behavior

It starts with the array of bullshit that people will tell me followed by their lack of class and their insane way to populate their friendships.

I was at first okay with the idea of hanging out with someone from my past but it's clear tonight that the reason I left is because we're two different people and I'm not okay with being around the crazy shit again.

First off, I think it's great that you've got a job and all and I am proud of you for that. I'm not proud of you for turning back into the same person that I try not to be. You're dating 2 guys? Do yourself a favor and just pick one otherwise you're just going to get wrapped up in another situation that you already went through and we know how awful that turned out.

The fact that your sex life is so far promiscuous that even a porn star looks like a virgin is sad. I'm not sure if you're hurting somewhere in there but I really hope that you don't catch a disease one of these days from sl…

An instrumental I made from loops

The best shoes I've ever bought

Image
Apologies for the pixels. My cam isn't that great at taking pictures.

Goldfrapp+Madonna inspired

For the auto trash

My all time favorite 80s song

For the inner weirdo

Hipster says yes

Vanessa Carlton

I don't normally talk about albums that I'm inspired by or ones that amaze me but this is one of those posts.
I recommend Vanessa Carlton's new album "Rabbits on the Run" not only because it was produced by Stevie Nicks but it will show you a new side to Vanessa Carlton.
The album is an art form. It's truly embodying the essence of Vanessa's art and it's a great creation of Stevie Nicks. It proves to people like myself who struggle with musical inspiration that if it comes from the heart; it doesn't fail.
Stream the entire album via her MySpace page @ www.myspace.com/vanessacarlton
Be sure to click on "Rabbits on the Run" to listen to the album in it's entirety. It's now available on iTunes.
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Blog changes (UPDATED)

As many of you may have noticed, the site toolbar has been updated and a new search box has been added.

Over the coming days, I will be updating the look and feel of my blog to reflect a more up-to-date look that I feel is time to work on.

I have a poll on the right-hand side that I would like for you all to consider voting on. It's important because it will determine what my readers would like while on my blog.

Please feel free to leave me a voice message as well or if you have questions; rather than e-mailing me, you can simply leave a voice message and I can respond to you via a phone call, text, or if your e-mail is on file; an e-mail.

UPDATE: A +1 button is now available on the site toolbar. Use this button to like a certain post on the blog. Sharing is disabled by Google by default for blogs that are not public.

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Want to learn about Chromebook and Chrome OS?

There are many sites to achieve learning more about Chromebook and Chrome OS but none of them are personal people who actually use both products. They usually consist of blogging companies or writers who are using it just to promote the product and to make themselves look like avid supporters.

AC Monroe offers a blog that is rich in posts and talks about things that many of you have questions about with these two products. For example; What are web apps and how do they work on Chrome OS? or What's a good alternative to Netflix for Chrome OS?

A lot of questions can be answered from his blog about it as well as anything else; be sure to spread the word about him and send him a tweet as well; he won't mind and unlike many of the other blogs out there; he will actually respond to you.

You can check out his blog for more info on Chromebook and Chrome OS as well as other things dealing with these wonderful products by visiting his blog here: http://chromebookguruac.blogspot.com/

Fin…
Sleeping will always be my vice.

It's official, I'm 22

So I've been negative about turning such an age but now that the day has come, I feel like it's time to embrace it. Might as well; right?
This time around, there will be no sad night with too much to drink, a bad appetite, and a sad story to tell my parents the next day. Just me, school, a little shopping hopefully thanks to a good friend of mine, and a few moments to reflect on my dreams.
These past few days I've been having some intense sexual dreams. I can't describe where they are coming from but they are happening more and more often and each time it's with someone I either met or someone I know personally (guy of course because I am gay after all). 
Still it's strange to see people in such a manner and to be doing something that I only want to do between me and the guy I'm with; monogamy is important to me and I know at least one friend of mine that could agree. 
I suppose though that these dreams are merely pure fantasy for me to enjoy but I'm no…